Aletheia
Well-known member
It's such a relief to finally find other people who get it.
But I realize that even here, I'm not free of anxiety. I still worry I don't belong.
Here are some of the things that worry leads me to do:
* wince and close my eyes every time I click the post reply button.
* delete things I've written, for fear they'll go over badly.
* hope that people strike up conversations with me because I'm unable to do so with them.
* take more than a day to find the courage to look at messages.
* worry that if I post too much, people will see what a loser I am and stay away.
* avoid talking about the most broken aspects of my life in case people don't relate.
Anyone else feel like this? What anxious things do you do here?
But I realize that even here, I'm not free of anxiety. I still worry I don't belong.
Here are some of the things that worry leads me to do:
* wince and close my eyes every time I click the post reply button.
* delete things I've written, for fear they'll go over badly.
* hope that people strike up conversations with me because I'm unable to do so with them.
* take more than a day to find the courage to look at messages.
* worry that if I post too much, people will see what a loser I am and stay away.
* avoid talking about the most broken aspects of my life in case people don't relate.
Anyone else feel like this? What anxious things do you do here?