Well went for a walk with him today. Such a nice warm autumn day. Our home town has an island with a bridge to it. Its very touristy. Always busy. Also have horse drawn trams that take tourists accross. We walked there today. Very nice. JUst even though its all good- and I can see so many things about him that indicate to me an illness like his clothing and hygiene and so on, Im still his friend but its the toxic smell still of hairspray, cigarettes and dederant and other stuff that hit me for six and just from him sitting in my car and then going for a walk with him- I end up today with a major front lobe headache and a feeling like my body is breaking down. Ive just always been very sensitive to chemicals. Im going over to his place tonight to watch a marathon of films and netflix but I know tht Im sacrificing my health to do so as Ill be in his toxic environment. Its not fair because when I feel like yeah just going out and having a little company and watching shows and having a laugh and knowing that he will be sensitive to my needs - and be nice etc.. nad having a friend for a laugh is good for me- but then its just all that toxicity that affects me really badly. It puts me back physically the next day or so. Im not sure what to do. Its like I really dont want to go over there beause Im hanging with a looney lol seriously- and his sister is just as bad- so their whole mentality on things and values and so on - I keep a huge distance from, and then all the toxcity. He smokes well away from me outside and around the corner and yet its still all on his clothes and the tobacco smell from his cigarette drawer and smell of dog wees and ice coffee, hairspray, dry dog shampoo or flea powder ?, deoderant etc... mainly the cigarettes - it just ruins me.