Ah know, technically, that I should be fair happy with the leaps n' bounds progress I've made since February, but for some reason I'm no. :thinking: Or at least, not overly happy. :sad:
Probably 'cause I'm no used tae be praised as much as ah huv been, lately. Or maybe ah just feel uncomfy takin' compliments, for fear they'll go tae ma heid. Or maybe that's just ma anxiety? :idontknow:
But ma physiotherapists are surprised and pleased with how well ah've been doing since starting physio. Though, ah think that slowly going to be phased oot, since there's only so much they can do during ma sessions. They did say about the gym and dieting, which isn't summit ah'd be opposed to. In fact, ah'd welcome it. Since ah need to get intae shape.
Don't know whit huvin them there (in the gym) would do. Ah mean, they dd offer to help oot which is nice o' them. But ah just feel incredibly awkward, as the only guy in a room with wimmin. Plus, it's no easy feelin' under pressure aw the time.
My mum's not as keen on the whole diet idea, but when it comes tae me she'd rather things didnae change. She always gotta be pessimistic aboot everythin' when it relates to me. :kickingmyself: But, of course, she'll spin that as me always being negative, when ah've always hud to just accept things as they are, never hud much say over anythin' in ma life, really.
Always felt ma disability, and my mum's lack of parental support held me back from living ma life how ah want.
That's probably why our relationship has been far from great.
Ma sister seems a bit mair positive, thinks ah picked the right time to get this orthodepic surgery, and said ah've been surprisingly positive and determined. Since she's known folk she supports in her job as a care worker, who huv just crumbled under the strain mentally of getting a huge operation done. Ah think everybuddy thought ah would dae the same.
Whether this going to gym more often will pan oot, ah don't know. Since ma family huv a history, with me, of rarely keepin' their promises.
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