Love

[Dead]

My depression is good most of the time. It's only when ever I see a romance or see a couple that are acting all lovy dovy that I get depressed and want to cry. I keep blaming myself because I'm 19 and still haven't kissed someone let alone anything else and I know the more time that goes by the harder it will be for someone to love me.
That's the only thing that makes me depressed. The only thing.

 

[NathanielWingatePeaslee]

My depression is good most of the time. It's only when ever I see a romance or see a couple that are acting all lovy dovy that I get depressed and want to cry. I keep blaming myself because I'm 19 and still haven't kissed someone let alone anything else and I know the more time that goes by the harder it will be for someone to love me.
That's the only thing that makes me depressed. The only thing.

When I was 19 I had very little experience with women. It was that year that a girl I worked with at a pet shop--older girl, 31--asked me if I'd like to hang out after work, and was rather insistent about it. I said okay. I didn't know what she wanted or was up to and I was suspicious it might be a mean joke. She plied me with wine and something else I can't mention because of site rules, and I ended up losing my virginity. She was quite skilled, and pretty.

A few months later another girl--a customer, my age--approached me at work and after numerous attempts to flirt with me on various visits to the pet shop (which I was utterly oblivious to because of my social cluelessness) she asked me if I'd like to go somewhere some time. I still had no idea she was trying to ask me out on a date, because my mind just couldn't wrap itself around that concept. It ended up being a very confusing and awkward conversation, but in the end she managed to get me to say yes. She ended up being my first 'real' girlfriend.

Afterward she told me how insanely frustrating I had been for her, and she very nearly gave up. I had basically made up my mind that it was never going to happen for me, that I was unwantable, unlovable, etc. I was absolutely sure of this. It almost prevented anything from happening for me.

 

[simpsons2007]

I'm sorry that your feeling depressed. I only wish I knew the answer which would help you. All I can say is that your still young and theres plenty of time for you to find that special someone to love just don't give up hope and it will happen when you least expect it to. I'm sorry I wasn't much help but giving advice is something I'm not very good at. I just hope that what I have said has helped even if its just a little.

 

[Phoenixx]

My depression is good most of the time. It's only when ever I see a romance or see a couple that are acting all lovy dovy that I get depressed and want to cry. I keep blaming myself because I'm 19 and still haven't kissed someone let alone anything else and I know the more time that goes by the harder it will be for someone to love me.
That's the only thing that makes me depressed. The only thing.

^ I feel like this quite a bit, but it's not the only thing that makes me depressed. I'm 18 and I've never kissed anyone or dated for that matter either.

 

[alwaysrunning]

Glad im not the only one, im a year older than you. Im twenty and ive never dated anyone either. I just cant wrap myself around that thought...i actually dont think about it much(or at all though). If it happens it happens but the way i see it theres no need to feel depressed about something like that, i mean its not like its going to make my life any more special riight?, only i can do that for myself =) Just be comfortable with yourself and know that another persons love doesnt neccessarily mean happiness but your love does =)

 

[IGotSeoul]

My depression is good most of the time. It's only when ever I see a romance or see a couple that are acting all lovy dovy that I get depressed and want to cry. I keep blaming myself because I'm 19 and still haven't kissed someone let alone anything else and I know the more time that goes by the harder it will be for someone to love me.
That's the only thing that makes me depressed. The only thing.

don't worry too much. the lovy dovy is only a fraction of what a relationship is entirely made of.

it's sort of like envying a man for eating a sausage pizza because you really like sausage, but through your infatuation of sausage, disregard that the sauce is of substandard quality and causes heartburn and things of that nature.

 

[CosmicNeurotica]

it's sort of like envying a man for eating a sausage pizza because you really like sausage, but through your infatuation of sausage, disregard that the sauce is of substandard quality and causes heartburn and things of that nature.

lol, what a great analogy.
Watch out for the bad sauce..

 

[Nanita]

I had my first boyfriend & lost my virginity at 15, but where I lived it was "normal" to start with all these things at age 12! (I´m from the very promiscuous Scandinavia, so bear with me okay).
I was going to the same parties as the others, I was wearing "the right clothes", I was not un-popular, I wasn´t even shy, so I didn´t understand why it didn´t happen to me.

But it was when I moved to another school that boys suddenly started talking to me right away, or whatever we did back then ("looking at each other in class").
My point is propably that it can turn everything around if u get out of your usual environment.

 

[dyingtolive]

omg Sausage pizza... and the man eating sausage pizza.. & the sauce ~

I think, Dead, that that feeling you're describing is the best part, the part that you can see in movies, the part they can turn into bite sized consumables. In fairness, you're not that old. And like Nanita said, ud be surprised how prevalent it is in different environments

Being a weird social recluse, i seem to attract and am attracted to weird people with their own share of disorders too, and while its romantic to think about, it can be confusing/tough/backwards

 

[Feathers]

Yeah, D. - you're so very young - things can still happen for ya!!

My first bf happened at 19 too, and when I really wasn't expecting it!!

You might wanna change your nickname for a start? And maybe start looking at yourself with different eyes?

I used to be very much bothered by happy couples too, someone online mentioned a trick to try to imagine yourself with someone great at that time too? Might wanna try it, if it works? (Maybe with pictures first?) Or you could see if great music in your ears helps, or such? (If it's on a walk/jog?) Or talking to someone who's with you?

You know those couples may split up later, or maybe they just quarrelled too.. but are just like that in public.. Some of my friends are divorced now.. (and they used to be all 'lovey dovey' too..) But it's still difficult when you're 19, and it's Spring/Summer outside, I know..

Someone I know who is really great was single for a loong time, then met her man at 24 and they are still happily married!!

Also check if you might have gluten sensitivity, or some other food allergy/sensitivity.. or if sugar/soda pop intake could be a problem.. Some people can have these as cause of depression/anxiety or crying too..

 

[dyingtolive]

You might wanna change your nickname for a start?

at least he doesn't have a scary avatar hehe

 

[Shant]

^ I feel like this quite a bit, but it's not the only thing that makes me depressed. I'm 18 and I've never kissed anyone or dated for that matter either.

This, too. Although I'm 19, and while seeing other couples can be depressing, more or less it also ends up pissing me off.