Fantasies will always be better ! IRL so much problems...
that is so true. i've always considered myself to be a hopeless romantic. my favorite book is pride & prejudice by jane austen, who is my favorite author.. i'm constantly looking for my mr. darcy, yet even when i find a guy, in the end, i always get hurt & even more damaged than before.
i always imagined being with a guy, just holding hands, cuddling while falling asleep, being able to tell him absolutely anything & not being afraid that he would judge me or hurt me in any way. i imagined being completely comfortable & myself around him, wanting to go to him when im feeling down, instead of going home & sitting in my room. i imagine myself seeing his faults, but accepting them, & loving them, & him doing the same for me.
..*sigh* i have so many "dreams"..& yet, when the time came down to it, i was simply unable to do any of those things, since i was disgustingly uncomfortable with it. **** my life. seriously. i hate myself sometimes, since i tend to ruin everything single-handedly. ugh.
Napping on a sunny yet cool day under a big oak tree with my hunnie napping on me, that's my fantasy
ooooh, yepp another good one. when i was in spain, there were so many couples in a madrid park doing just that, just lying in each others arms... & i totally fantasized about being able to do that one day...hopefully one day i'll be able to.
Let's do it, I have a Spanish passport lol
i'm so in. haha we'll see how far my insignificant amount of spanish will get me..
Yo puedo hacer todo el hablando
"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams."
-this quote depresses the f-ck out of me, I am divorced from reality and hopelessly devoted to my dreams...
Kanon said:I'm curious to know... since most of us here haven't had "real" love lives, what do you fantasize about when thinking about the person you like, or just when thinking about love altogether?
exquisite said:i always imagined being with a guy, just holding hands, cuddling while falling asleep, being able to tell him absolutely anything & not being afraid that he would judge me or hurt me in any way. i imagined being completely comfortable & myself around him, wanting to go to him when im feeling down, instead of going home & sitting in my room. i imagine myself seeing his faults, but accepting them, & loving them, & him doing the same for me.
I've been in love once in my life, from when I was 17 to 21. Met my high school sweetheart when I joined this all-girls school for six-form (hey I may have SA and AvPD but there are some things you just gotta do!). Those were the most magical years of my life so far. So when I think about the girls I like, I just hope to meet someone special like that again one day and experience those powerful emotions and intimacy. Being in love, it's like God put an angel on earth just for you. Better than any fantasy I could ever imagine.
I have one recurring memory from that happy time that pops into my head every now and then. For a few months over one summer I used to meet her every day for lunch in the park. I'm sitting on one of the benches there watching people play tennis, waiting for her to arrive. Minutes go by and then sure enough she walks round the corner and beams this huge smile at me. My heart skips a beat as I take in the view of this beautiful girl - long rich brown hair, huge brown eyes, looking both incredibly cute and sexy in her work outfit. And I can't take my eyes off her. Even though I see her most days and know every detail of her face it's still fascinating and slightly surreal. Then we hug and kiss and I don't want to let go.
And that's it. The girl of my dreams walking round that corner, on her way to meet me of all people! Happy days indeed.