Seriously I am so done with everyone and myself.. People are so selfish it makes my skin crawl. And as for myself well that's even more complicated. lol I won't try anything new for fear of rejection, I'm stuck in the house all the time because I hate change and I don't want to be pushed into something I don't want to do. I couldn't even imagin hanging out with kids my age, going to parties and having a good time cause I know that I would feel completely out of place and make my self feel even more like an alian. I can't be in a serious relationship for serval reasons, 1. I need to get out and find the guy.. 2. I'm so messed up that he would chatch on fast and mostly likely leave. And 3. I've tried it didn't work. I sit day in and day out in my tiny little box and wish for everything to end, what kind of life is that?