Invisibleman
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I wish I could sleep but I cant,my minds being crowded with so much sh*t. Thinking about my future...again.
How are you feeling?
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1BlackSheep
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How exciting for you!!! This is the beginning of making your dream of social work a reality! I have no doubt that you're going to be a huge success!
MikeyC
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Thinking about the future is one thing I like to avoid. It's never a nice thought. Sorry you're going through that right now, mate.
Invisibleman
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Its a terrible thought but its one I pretty much have to think about. I just feel so depressed when i think about university (which no offence to shykiwi but reading his post is what reminded me of it). On top of the whole f**kin sister fiasco when it comes to university i have no clue what I want to do. I hardly even know who I am and what I want...
The few things I wanted to do i cant because it requires math which im really weak at. At school im in the math class for stupid kids and I still struggle.
Stupid Canada and its ludicrous requirements.Seriously you need math for pretty much any course. I wanted to go into sociology but nope,you need 2 courses in f**kin calculus. Psychology,same thing. I wanted to go into geography but oops,you need physics(technically not math but has a f**k ton of math) AND calculus. wanted to do kinesiology since I love sports but that entire f**kin profession is math.
I think il just go to police academy like my mom suggested. Police academy could work,they would give me the abuse I deserve...
MikeyC
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It's difficult to go to University when you don't know what you want to do. Make sure you decide before enrolling because University is expensive.
Canada's not the only country with ludicrous requirements. It's the same in Australia. Sorry to hear you're so bad at math. We all have our weak points.
Why do you "deserve" abuse? That is ludicrous.
lonely_drummer
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I was a physics major in university and I saw it all first year. It's so hard to avoid taking either first year physics or calculus and it's pretty ridiculous because both are practically the same course, physics is obviously more applicable and easier to get generally. I know sometimes they offer two types of first year physics courses, one is intended for science majors and it is calculus based or there is the non calculus based physics which is definitely easier. I know how they are with math but I've always been a natural at it so I lucked out but it was the other courses like sociology and psychology that made school a lot more challenging for me. Schools tough, especially when you don't know what to do and you're spending all that money. I basically spent 5 years for a 4 year degree, the extra was just figuring out what to do.
Invisibleman
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Yeah.I keep having turmoil with my mother over it. Most of it was because of this site actually.... My mother doesnt really want to accept that theres something wrong with me and shes never really believed much into my anxiety.
One day I made the mistake of leaving SPW up. "what the hell is this?" I went pale because I had remembered leaving it up. "socialphobiaworld? what the hell are you on! get in here!" "mom its nothing I swear just ex out of the pa-" "Is this a forum?" "mom ex out now.." "oh so you would rather discuss your problems with other people than your own damn family!" "MOM EX OUT OF THE F**KIN PAGE NOW!" I grabbed the mouse and exed out as she stormed out and I went to my room. For the next month she would hardly talk to me,saying only that if my SA is that bad than theyre not wasting money on university for me.... I just want to die at this point.
1BlackSheep
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That's harsh!
Hopefully she won't deny you a college education!Does Canada have two year junior colleges? These are really good for taking general ed classes while you're figuring out what interests you. A lot of the junior colleges here also have vocational programs for things like being a paramedic or medical assistant. It's a good way to get enough schooling so you can get a job and some work experience. Then you can always go back later and get more advanced training/education.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Vulnerable, and quite emotional. Not that I'm upset or anything. I'm just aware of how I'm feeling at the moment.
It's amazing what a little compassion from someone else will do. Especially for someone like me, who rarely feels like he can let his guard down around people.
It's amazing what a little compassion from someone else will do. Especially for someone like me, who rarely feels like he can let his guard down around people.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Vulnerable. Quite emotional.
Going to university in your 30's....that's sounds really inspirational!Good luck with your studies.
MrJones
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Rejected... sad... exhausted... worn out...
The classmate who I thought I could call friend one day, the one I told about my issues, left me behind once I stopped being useful.
My problems have been going worse for quite a while and now I have a lot of problems focusing and with memory, and it makes it almost impossible to keep working as I used to. I feel totally unable to do a simple task. I still can give a few ideas, but I can't organize myself and I can't program at all.
It's just like when I was a kid, people asked me for help, pretended to be my friends and when the course was over, so was our "friendship". Now that I have problems I am useless and nobody needs me anymore. And of course nobody wants me. I've offered myself to be part of other groups but everyone rejected me.
I used to be somewhat intelligent, now I'm just a burden everyone tries to avoid ::
I'm very very tired and I don't know what to do.
The classmate who I thought I could call friend one day, the one I told about my issues, left me behind once I stopped being useful.
My problems have been going worse for quite a while and now I have a lot of problems focusing and with memory, and it makes it almost impossible to keep working as I used to. I feel totally unable to do a simple task. I still can give a few ideas, but I can't organize myself and I can't program at all.
It's just like when I was a kid, people asked me for help, pretended to be my friends and when the course was over, so was our "friendship". Now that I have problems I am useless and nobody needs me anymore. And of course nobody wants me. I've offered myself to be part of other groups but everyone rejected me.
I used to be somewhat intelligent, now I'm just a burden everyone tries to avoid :
:I'm very very tired and I don't know what to do.
totoro
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Good on you ShyKiwi
I, and I'm sure many others on this forum believe in you and wish you all the best! Time flies when you are at university so those four years might not feel so long once you get underway.
Phoenixx
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^ This is great, Kiwi! Good luck!
this_portrait
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I feel like I could lay down and take a nap, but I'm not going to do that, for a few reasons, the main one being that I need to get my sleep schedule back on track.
planemo
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Rejected... sad... exhausted... worn out...
The classmate who I thought I could call friend one day, the one I told about my issues, left me behind once I stopped being useful.
My problems have been going worse for quite a while and now I have a lot of problems focusing and with memory, and it makes it almost impossible to keep working as I used to. I feel totally unable to do a simple task. I still can give a few ideas, but I can't organize myself and I can't program at all.
It's just like when I was a kid, people asked me for help, pretended to be my friends and when the course was over, so was our "friendship". Now that I have problems I am useless and nobody needs me anymore. And of course nobody wants me. I've offered myself to be part of other groups but everyone rejected me.
I used to be somewhat intelligent, now I'm just a burden everyone tries to avoid :
I'm very very tired and I don't know what to do.
From what I can tell, it seems like your stress levels are hampering your ability to concentrate. The problems you speak of, are probably being focused on too much and this can stop your mind from wanting to focus on anything else besides what's concerning you at the moment. I went through this too. You have to try and convince yourself that your problems are not worth your attention or you have to solve and confront them. Take it from me, focusing on your work is more rewarding and it will prove a great and beneficial distraction. Don't let whatever is bothering you, consume you. You can actually use your work to fight it. It something I look back and regret not doing. i hope things work out.
I'm fine. It's my first day in my own appartment. It will take a few days before i'm really settled, since there is still work to do. I'm looking forward to buy more furniture and stuff to make my house more cozy^_^
Phoenixx
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^ Great!
I can't wait til I move out and have my own apartment. Emotionally I'm ready, and I even have boxes packed to move out. I just need to be financially ready until I can do so.^ Great!
That's nice
good luck eh.Ive been up all day too and was about to lay down. Then I read your thing and was like Oh...I might go out tommorow and if I stay up all morning I am going to feel tired when I do.