B ut thats the thing I honestly have nobody in my corner at this point,my parents dont really care about me. I know what you are saying but its so hard to fight back. Again it comes from my sister.
I hate admitting it to myself but I have always felt such jealousy towards my older sister. Since she was born shes always been the most extroverted of extroverts. She was always chatty and wanting to be the life of the party. I would stand alone on the playground watching as people clambered wanting to talk to her and be her friend.
She was academically gifted at a young age,I would sit awkwardly as my parents would discuss my sister with other parents like she was an only child and talked like I never existed. I would get a pat on the head for my report card while my sister would get unprecedented praise,money,and other gifts.
By the time I got to highschool my sister was one of the popular girls,our phone would be ringing off the hook with people looking for her and she was always going out to parties while I stayed home in my room. . Nobody even knew my name and even if they did it was "oh you're Claire's (not sisters real name,just example) brother" even the f**kin teachers called me "claire's brother".
My sister then graduated highschool with top honours and now shes in engineering at one of the top universities in Canada. She already has top marks, her life is basically set in stone at this point,few things could go wrong for her at this point.
The favoring that my parents demonstrated was now even more emphasized. Back before her success I sensed my parents had a lick of caution,I mean we were both wildcards at that point with no indication where we would end up. When she got into engineering I could see the way they
changed and focused on her completely.
More and more the accomplishments of other parents children were demolished as my parents bragged to no end about their prized daughter. Soon the only talk in my household was of what my sister was doing,how she was, feeling,and what she was thinking. The few times I could actually get a word in it was quickly stifled by my sisters constant phone and skype calls. My parents demeanor would change from a dry and drab one in my prescence to a bright exuberant one everytime she called. Anytime I want to talk to my mom about univeristy its like "so mom,I was thinking abou-" WE'LL TALK IN A DAMN MINUTE IM IN THE MIDDLE OF TALKING TO YOUR SISTER! now what were you saying *insert sisters name*.
My sister has set the bar to a height that I could never reach if I tried,I just want to make my parents proud but knowing that they will never be as proud of me as they are of my sister makes me question the point in trying,il never be more than second place