I feel scared yet strong.
Great to hear that, hope it lastsWoke up with a smile on my face.![]()
Well, my mum doesn't seem to care about my anxiety and depression issues. She says she does but I'm not convinced. As everytime I try and open up about how I'm feeling and have a calm, reasonable discussion about it, she just yells at me. Which, I think, says more about her than me.
I actually had an argument with my mother a few weeks ago, in which I told her how her negative attitude has affect me since I was a teenager, as well as few other things. She didn't exactly take it well. The truth is often hard to hear and accept at times.
Aside from that, my disability's been getting me down alot lately. There's a pretty big operation I need have again in order to reduce the spasms in my leg due to my cerebral palsy. I'd got it done when I was 14 but that was too early to have any lasting effect. I was getting botox injections for a few months but those stop as my doctor was concerned more about how much money they were costing than if they were helping. Which made me realize some people in medical profession, with few exceptions, don't give a f*%k about you at all.
Anyway, I've put that operation on hold for the last 3 years. Not out of fear but in case I ended up booking tickets for something I really wanted to go to (concert or stand-up comedy show), and in end couldn't go because I'd be getting the operation that week.
That's about it, really.
Well, my mum doesn't seem to care about my anxiety and depression issues. She says she does but I'm not convinced. As everytime I try and open up about how I'm feeling and have a calm, reasonable discussion about it, she just yells at me. Which, I think, says more about her than me.
I actually had an argument with my mother a few weeks ago, in which I told her how her negative attitude has affect me since I was a teenager, as well as few other things. She didn't exactly take it well. The truth is often hard to hear and accept at times.
Aside from that, my disability's been getting me down alot lately. There's a pretty big operation I need have again in order to reduce the spasms in my leg due to my cerebral palsy. I'd got it done when I was 14 but that was too early to have any lasting effect. I was getting botox injections for a few months but those stop as my doctor was concerned more about how much money they were costing than if they were helping. Which made me realize some people in medical profession, with few exceptions, don't give a f*%k about you at all.
Anyway, I've put that operation on hold for the last 3 years. Not out of fear but in case I ended up booking tickets for something I really wanted to go to (concert or stand-up comedy show), and in end couldn't go because I'd be getting the operation that week.
That's about it, really.
^I understand about your mom. Mine is exactly the same. I think although sometimes they can realize, they just don't know how to help or behave with us. I've stopped arguing with my mom about such issues, it never helps and I always end up getting frustrated.
Good luck with your operation, hope you get well soon![]()
I wish you the best for the operation and that you well get well quickly,
I know what you mean by your mother I think she cares but the thing is often with people that are close to your side friends or family is that they don't understand the problem and don't know how to act around it, like my closest friends don't know how to behave when Im down or really nervous,
And doctors are doctors some just want money and tell you stuff that you already know without actually fixing you.
^ That's great!Woke up with a smile on my face.![]()
Woke up with a smile on my face.![]()
I'm feeling accomplished, anxious, and bored.
I woke up with a cat in my face.
I'm cleaning. I love to clean. It's cathartic and gives me a sense of accomplishment.
I woke up with a cat in my face.
Cats are definitely superior lolMy cat use to lick my eyelids when she wanted me to wake up and feed her.
My cat use to lick my eyelids when she wanted me to wake up and feed her.
^ Yeah finally managed to take out my stereo and my tv, I never use them and I don't really want them. Now I just have to find somewhere to just drop it off (Salvation Army I guess?) or someone else that's willing to come along and grab them. Any takers?That means you did something productive though, right? That's good!
^ Yeah finally managed to take out my stereo and my tv, I never use them and I don't really want them. Now I just have to find somewhere to just drop it off (Salvation Army I guess?) or someone else that's willing to come along and grab them. Any takers?:
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You know that feeling when you've eaten too much pizza?
Well that.
You know that feeling when you've eaten too much pizza?
Well that.
I feel okay, considering I just returned to work for my first shift. Of course, the reliefs that took over my job made a mess of everything, so it's now up to me to make it all the way I want it again. I got there early and left late, but I will chalk my first shift as "successful."![]()