I'm hurting so badly. I don't know what to do. My whole world has come to an end. I don't just feel it, I know it. I spent last night in the hospital because I tried to kill myself. I didn't lose my life but I did lose the most important thing in it. I let something take over last night and I'm so afraid that, now it's here, it'll never leave me alone. I don't want to cause unnecessary worry to anyone. I'm not going to hurt myself again in a hurry. I just feel so sick and hopeless and trapped inside myself. I've never felt pain like this before. I've completely destroyed the one thing that ever truly mattered to me and I will never, never forgive myself.
I'm hurting so badly. I don't know what to do. My whole world has come to an end. I don't just feel it, I know it. I spent last night in the hospital because I tried to kill myself. I didn't lose my life but I did lose the most important thing in it. I let something take over last night and I'm so afraid that, now it's here, it'll never leave me alone. I don't want to cause unnecessary worry to anyone. I'm not going to hurt myself again in a hurry. I just feel so sick and hopeless and trapped inside myself. I've never felt pain like this before. I've completely destroyed the one thing that ever truly mattered to me and I will never, never forgive myself.
Tired but happy. We flushed a ground parrot out of the heath doing vegetation sites yesterday. Ground parrots are very rare, so it was exciting to see one.