How are you feeling?

Really hungry and uneasy.

Full of dread.

I've got about one month until the mental tsunami hits.😠 I honestly would not mind if i died in a car accident between then and now.

BlueDays said: ↑

Full of dread.

I've got about one month until the mental tsunami hits.😠 I honestly would not mind if i died in a car accident between then and now.

What's gonna happen ... ? If you don't mind me asking.
It's none of my business. Sorry.

WriterChick3 said: ↑

What's gonna happen ... ? If you don't mind me asking.
It's none of my business. Sorry.

I am being forced to do a vocational course. Which means I will have to spend hours out of my house everyday and work in the Industry as well.

I am beginning to think I am suffering from agoraphobia as well now:🙁:

feeling a little stressed out...

Like my head is going to explode - so much college work to do, I seem to spend so much time doing work but getting nothing productive done.....

God like still.

Still pretty bad anxiety wise, and not much better mood wise. But someone just did something really thoughtful and sweet for me which has made me smile.

Going to try and go up town tomorrow and put this anxiety in it's place, and I have c.b.t next Tuesday so I want to get back on track.

I'm feeling positive after scheduling a therapy session for monday. I haven't had a therapist since 2009 and I'm so happy about it.

Just fed up with my life. I feel really down after another bad nights sleep. (if you can even call it sleep)

I'm feeling a bit nervous again. We're going to be having an extremely busy day and we'll be dealing with a whole lot of people. I don't feel like dealing with people today, but I'm trying to change my mind. My anxiety acts up every now and then when I'm talking to people, but I try not to dwell on it.

Just feeling pretty bummed. Playing second fiddle to everything sure sucks, I HATE life, I wish I had never been born, a total waste of space really.


Huge relief a whole entire bunch of family is moving away later this year, immigrating in fact, so they won't be back for a long long time, thank goodness, so one less gang to muddle into my affairs, and less obligations, no more dinners to attend etc etc.

I feel like I want to cry, but can't. How is this happening? I honestly don't know what to do about myself.

bluemoonrising said: ↑

I feel like I want to cry, but can't. How is this happening? I honestly don't know what to do about myself.

Sorry to hear that, it really sucks when your that numb you can't even let your emotions out. though I think it's quite common when you have serious or prolonged depression, some meds can apparently numb you too.

hoddesdon said: ↑

Good luck ...

Saskia said:

Good luck Daz, Hope you'll be doing fine.

Thanks guys!

I got a call today..I was successful. Start on Monday 😀 Going to celebrate over the weekend.

I'm paying bills so I feel like killing myself
but it should pass in some hours

Discouraged... Trying to pick myself up through exercising, running in morning = tired rest of day because not used to it. Expressed this outloud, mother: "No, exercise can't make you tired. It's you, you're always tired, you don't do anything, blah blah blah blah blah" For some reason it makes me not want to try. But will not let her run my life...

Flat and angry.
I think I need to invest in a Punching Bag.

Unproductive. I haven't had a job since last October and I feel like I've wasted the last 4 months doing nothing.

Bored out of my brains. I wish i could escape my own company for a while!