i definately don't feel like i want to feel, i get really annoyed at how social anxiety influences so much of my life.
It makes me feel so uncomfortable with people, i end up drinking a lot just to suppress the feelings, but that just creates a whole load of new stuff to feel anxious about.
saying this is my first entry on this, i don't want to moan to much about my life (save that for another time) , but i really want to be part of the world around me, to stop running away from work, people , basicly life.