How are you feeling?

[Graeme1988]

Mum's not talking to me either. That might be the only way out. I could be wrong, but i doubt they'll forgive me, esp dad.

Spent about an hour trying to cut into a vein, but had nothng sharp enough to get it bleeding. That's how f*cked i am right now. And thinking of ways to end it. Overdosing did nothing.

I just want it all to end. I REALLY want to be dead right now.

F*ckin' hell... Daein yersel' in ! Sorry, didnae realise things were that bad fur ye. :sad: Though, eh...

Not ALL change has to be bad. Besides, many people say "New year, new me" and never follow through with it, you have an opportunity. I think you should believe in yourself. Branch out.

Tamale's no wrong in what he said here. But ah git how you feel about change, slowesthand. Also, ah don't think I've ever followed through on that notion of "New year, new me"... :thinking:
Well, until this year.

 

[FountainandFairfax]

They've been tearing out the condo next to mine for the last three days. Hammers, drills, saws, and loud talking.

I generally stay cloistered in one room of my place, which, thank goodness is on the opposite side of the unit they're working on. Still, with my bedroom door closed, you can't tell the noise isn't coming from elsewhere in my very own condo.

It's like my place is haunted by the ghosts of carpenters.

I'm just thankful that I've done that same work, I can relate to how noisy it is and I know the guys are just doing their job. The racket doesn't bother me one bit.

 

[FountainandFairfax]

I had to tell the neighbors to stop parking in my space tonight. I guess looking like a serial killer comes in handy sometimes, there was no problem.

I was leaving at three in the morning, going out for a late-night drive when I passed them coming in on the driveway. I glanced in my rear-view mirror to see them pull right into my doggone parking spot as I was nearing the road.

I turned around, drove up behind him, and caught him right before he was about to make his way inside. I told him he was parked in my spot, he apologized, said he didn't realize it, that he was just visiting his girlfriend and didn't know the rules or something (even though my unit number is clearly painted in my space).

I told him it was no big deal, he said something else in the way of a nervous apology, and then I drove away feeling like an a55hole.

 

[PugofCrydee]

I had to tell the neighbors to stop parking in my space tonight. I guess looking like a serial killer comes in handy sometimes, there was no problem.

I was leaving at three in the morning, going out for a late-night drive when I passed them coming in on the driveway. I glanced in my rear-view mirror to see them pull right into my doggone parking spot as I was nearing the road.

I turned around, drove up behind him, and caught him right before he was about to make his way inside. I told him he was parked in my spot, he apologized, said he didn't realize it, that he was just visiting his girlfriend and didn't know the rules or something (even though my unit number is clearly painted in my space).

I told him it was no big deal, he said something else in the way of a nervous apology, and then I drove away feeling like an a55hole.

Well done for speaking up! Sh!t like that annoys the c r a p outta me.

 

[Graeme1988]

Sh!t like that annoys the c r a p outta me.

:shyness: :bigsmile:

 

[theslowesthand]

F*CING TERRIBLE. shaking trembling nervus cant stand ierks. neurological.
just happened a few days ago.

 

[Graeme1988]

Ah feel like ah could glass masel' oot o' sheer frustration. :kickingmyself:

Oh, translation: I feel so pissed off that I could smash a glass bottle over in my head in anger.

 

[Graeme1988]

They hud aw those months to talk me about it, but naw... They wait til ma f*ckin' medical form arrives so they cun try to emotional blackmail me into no movin' oot. Perfect timing, huh? :no: :veryangry:

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[Hot_Tamale]

Feeling quite motivated once again. I've made my intentions clear on the forum before that I would love an actual relationship, but I ran across this article this morning that put my desire in a whole new perspective:

"Out of all the bullsh*t you are living through that you can easily change and improve, you picked the only thing that is hard to change and start complaining about it!?"

That's inspiring to me. I can improve my life in other areas first.

Article credit: www.mysupremacy.com

 

[Graeme1988]

Like I should give up... Empty, I guess. :idontknow:

Wish my family were more understanding. :sad: It's sh!t when ye dinnae huv somebuddy to turn to in real-life. Guilt-tripping and accusing me of being unreasonable is just making me feel that ma decision to move oot wus more than justified. :thumbdown: Yet, they could've talk me oot o' this had they not made me moving out all about themselves. Should've kept their word when they said they'd treat me better...

 

[AtTheGates]

For 2018, one of my goals is to be more of an investor and less of a consumer .



I mean hell, I dont have a girl friend and I dont have many friends irl anyway so wtf should I be spending money on other than bills.?


seriously. Saving and investing is the key.

 

[Graeme1988]

I'm worried about theslowesthand. He told me in pm he couldn't eat or sleep for days and could only lie in bed. I told him he needs to see a doctor and to call the ambulance.

:sad: I hope he's okay. His post in response to me was certainly worrying to read. You gave him the right advice, though. And good on ye for messaging him. :thumbup:

 

[PugofCrydee]

For 2018, one of my goals is to be more of an investor and less of a consumer .



I mean hell, I dont have a girl friend and I dont have many friends irl anyway so wtf should I be spending money on other than bills.?


seriously. Saving and investing is the key.

the key to?..

 

[Hot_Tamale]

:sad: I hope he's okay. His post in response to me was certainly worrying to read. You gave him the right advice, though. And good on ye for messaging him. :thumbup:

Ambulances are for emergencies. What is a paramedic going to do for someone that's depressed?

 

[Graeme1988]

Ambulances are for emergencies. What is a paramedic going to do for someone that's depressed?

Aside from being absolutely ragin' if they were called out for that - absolutely f*ck all, to put it bluntly. But yer no wrong, Tamale. Maybe he should just see the doctor, then? :question: :idontknow:

 

[Hot_Tamale]

Aside from being absolutely ragin' if they were called out for that - absolutely f*ck all, to put it bluntly. But yer no wrong, Tamale. Maybe he should just see the doctor, then? :question: :idontknow:

I mean, Jinxed may be right too? If someone was depressed and suicidal I suppose paramedics could talk someone off the ledge or revive someone if it got that extreme.

I'm just wondering. I'm no expert.

 

[Graeme1988]

I mean, Jinxed may be right too? If someone was depressed and suicidal I suppose paramedics could talk someone off the ledge or revive someone if it got that extreme.

I'm just wondering. I'm no expert.

Yeah, I'm no expert, either. I only have my experience of my mother a few months ago, when she was claiming to be in such agony from her right hip that I had to get a doctor out to see her, and asked my oldest sister to take our Mum to the hospital just to be sure she'd be okay.

 

[AtTheGates]

the key to?..

Getting filthy rich.


...well at least enough to drop out of the rat race.

 

[PugofCrydee]

Getting filthy rich.


...well at least enough to drop out of the rat race.

That's pretty much what I think about/ dream about. Getting enough money to be self sufficient and not having to be a slave to the system.

Good luck with it.

 

[vj288]

Ambulances are for emergencies. What is a paramedic going to do for someone that's depressed?

If you call 911, and tell them you are seriously thinking about hurting yourself, something will be done to help you. An ambulance may come in to bring you to the hospital where you would be committed to the mental hospital or to talk to a mental health worker at the hospital to take another course of action.