How are you feeling?

[Graeme1988]

Yep, i can relate there pal.
But for me, i see apparent success at first, which sets me up for the fall of real failure later. So i tend not to aim to achieve anything these days, as i already know the end result (after all the ups'n'downs). :thumbdown:

Well you're the opposite of me in regards of setting yerself up for a fall. I immediately expect failure from the outset. Chalk that down to having a very dour parent and an extremely pessimistic outlook. Being Scottish, in other words.

But, aye, ah don't aim to achieve much these days, either. :idontknow:

 

[AtTheGates]

well I'm not dead yet and I have two days off. iv felt worse i guess *shrug*

 

[Graeme1988]

I don't think this will be a very good year for me, I mean compared with last year. :sad:

 

[defiance]

It's one of the worst feelings for me personally when people count on you for important things and you can't deliver. It just crushes me so bad.

 

[Graeme1988]

It's one of the worst feelings for me personally when people count on you for important things and you can't deliver. It just crushes me so bad.

Yup! I hate disappointing people as well. But, that seems to be what I'm best at. :sad: :idontknow:

 

[defiance]

Just wish I was dead. I have nothing to offer. Yeah...just really wish I was dead.

 

[Graeme1988]

Just wish I was dead. I have nothing to offer. Yeah...just really wish I was dead.

I said this, almost verbatim to my mum today when she asked how I felt about having to wear glasses. I just went on this rant about my disability and how I just seem to suffer in life. :sad:

 

[defiance]

I am bothered by the fact that good honest hard working people die everyday when they have so much to live for and yet somehow I get to keep going? Does anyone else think this way or am I the only one?

 

[Graeme1988]

I am bothered by the fact that good honest hard working people die everyday when they have so much to live for and yet somehow I get to keep going? Does anyone else think this way or am I the only one?

Nope! You're not the only one who thinks like that. I wonder the same on an almost daily basis. :sad:

 

[defiance]

Crushed. It all started when my egocentric, narcissistic, idiot, anger driven sibling opened his mouth. He has this thing where everything is everybody's fault except his. He blamed my Mom, WHO HAS DONE LITERALLY ALL SHE COULD DO FOR HIM AND MORE, for not doing a better job as a parent?....ARE YOU F**KING KIDDING ME!?!?!?!!.... I hate this guy so much and I long for the day where I never EVER see him again. Because of all this, I got blamed for not being able to get a job or help out in ways someone my age should. All of this started with that ungrateful *******. I'll pray for death again tonight because if I get it, I'll no longer have to deal with this sh*t.:kickingmyself:

 

[theslowesthand]

I never admit to anybody that i'm often lonely (or at least lacking the stimulation of social contact). I don't even admit it to myself. :sad:

 

[defiance]

I never admit to anybody that i'm often lonely (or at least lacking the stimulation of social contact). I don't even admit it to myself. :sad:

I know the feeling. I often tell myself that I don't need or want it to make myself feel better somehow....it never works.

 

[PugofCrydee]

I never admit to anybody that i'm often lonely (or at least lacking the stimulation of social contact). I don't even admit it to myself. :sad:

I hear ya mate.. and understand only too well.
However these days even when I'm around people i feel lonely.

Weird... I don't actually like too many people. I mean, really like them for who they REALLY are, and yearn for their company. Yet at times I feel so lonely I despair for friendship. Then when I am around people socially they only disappoint me..and I long for solitude again.

 

[defiance]

I hear ya mate.. and understand only too well.
However these days even when I'm around people i feel lonely.

Weird... I don't actually like too many people. I mean, really like them for who they REALLY are, and yearn for their company. Yet at times I feel so lonely I despair for friendship. Then when I am around people socially they only disappoint me..and I long for solitude again.

Man....I couldn't have said it better myself. THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I AM.

 

[Sonella_Charm]

I feel good after a very important celebration at home. Hope you are feeling at your best too!

 

[AtTheGates]

Man....I couldn't have said it better myself. THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I AM.

same here. pretty much word for word.

 

[GraybeardGhost]

Tired, hungry, depressed. Must be Thursday.

 

[Graeme1988]

I hear ya mate.. and understand only too well.
However these days even when I'm around people i feel lonely.

Weird... I don't actually like too many people. I mean, really like them for who they REALLY are, and yearn for their company. Yet at times I feel so lonely I despair for friendship. Then when I am around people socially they only disappoint me..and I long for solitude again.

Same here. One of the reason why I much prefer my own company.

 

[Graeme1988]

Getting really fed-up with constantly being emotionally manipulated into doing stuff just make everyone else happy. Apparently me refusing to go along with my family's way of thinking makes me a c*nt. :kickingmyself: So, much for the whole just being yerself, individuality and all that, eh? :thumbdown:

 

[Marc7]

It's awrite, I'm used to her being bossy and domineering. Gave up trying to make her see that she can't always get things her way.

Oh ok.

For me, it's all the time. And they quite enjoy, not only, reminding me of how much of a letdown I am. But they reinforce it, by talking down to me. Apparently, me choicing not to do something my family suggests because I don't feel like it; to them, that means I'm too good or better than them.

That's messed up.

Yeah, it does. :bigsmile:

Oh. I thought it meant that or I researched it idk :idontknow:.