How are you feeling?

I have been feeling up and down in my mood since July of 2013. I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and I also think that I have body dismorphic disorder as well. I am currently taking abilify and I have been still feeling off. I have a horrible obsession with my appearance more specifically my ears. I don't know why I have an obsession with them, but they are pretty small and I hate it, everyone says that it its fine and they are not that small but I can't seem to get past it. It has made me absolutely miserable and unhappy. I want to stop worrying about them but I can't seem to stop thinking about them.

S_Spartan said: ↑

I have been there brother. Actually pretty much everyday I wake up with a sense of dread.
It is good you are here telling us about it. sometimes that mood can cause a person to isolate themselves.

I'm sorry you go through this, too.

I want to isolate myself, but I'm so lonely that I also want to talk to people. And just because that's not enough, I try not to talk to people because I feel completely unworthy and lame.

This is the worst I've felt in at least four months.

MikeyC said: ↑

I'm sorry you go through this, too.

I want to isolate myself, but I'm so lonely that I also want to talk to people. And just because that's not enough, I try not to talk to people because I feel completely unworthy and lame.

I hate to hear you say that Mikey. We certainly don't think of you like that! You seem like an intelligent and kind person.

S_Spartan said: ↑

I hate to hear you say that Mikey. We certainly don't think of you like that! You seem like an intelligent and kind person.

Thanks, mate.

jamilt said: ↑

I have been feeling up and down in my mood since July of 2013. I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder and I also think that I have body dismorphic disorder as well. I am currently taking abilify and I have been still feeling off. I have a horrible obsession with my appearance more specifically my ears. I don't know why I have an obsession with them, but they are pretty small and I hate it, everyone says that it its fine and they are not that small but I can't seem to get past it. It has made me absolutely miserable and unhappy. I want to stop worrying about them but I can't seem to stop thinking about them.

^Hello and welcome to SPW jamilt 🙂

MikeyC said: ↑

I want to isolate myself, but I'm so lonely that I also want to talk to people. And just because that's not enough, I try not to talk to people because I feel completely unworthy and lame.

This is the worst I've felt in at least four months.

Mikey the words "unworthy and lame" do not belong in a sentence about you!! You are quite the opposite!🙂
(((Hugs))) I hope these feelings ease up for you soon Mikey.

BlueDays said: ↑

Mikey the words "unworthy and lame" do not belong in a sentence about you!! You are quite the opposite!🙂
(((Hugs))) I hope these feelings ease up for you soon Mikey.

Thanks heaps, BlueDays. I hope this doesn't last too long. How are you going?

MikeyC said: ↑

I'm sorry you go through this, too.

I want to isolate myself, but I'm so lonely that I also want to talk to people. And just because that's not enough, I try not to talk to people because I feel completely unworthy and lame.

This is the worst I've felt in at least four months.

Since you have been seeing your psychologist and she has been feeding you false hope I could see that you would probably be heading for a crash. I'm am not gloating I have been where you are and could see the pattern emerging, sorry that life sucks.

hidwell said: ↑

Since you have been seeing your psychologist and she has been feeding you false hope I could see that you would probably be heading for a crash. I'm am not gloating I have been where you are and could see the pattern emerging, sorry that life sucks.

I don't think she's been feeding me false hope. From what I can tell, she's a good psychologist. What has been your experience with this?

MikeyC said: ↑

I don't think she's been feeding me false hope. From what I can tell, she's a good psychologist. What has been your experience with this?

That they try and change you into a more out going person, join clubs be more social, and when it goes wrong and in my case it always does and I spiral into depression and they the psychologist have absolutely no answer.

hidwell said: ↑

That they try and change you into a more out going person, join clubs be more social, and when it goes wrong and in my case it always does and I spiral into depression they have absolutely no answer.

Interesting point. I'll bring up how I'm feeling next time I see her and see what she comes up with.

hidwell said: ↑

That they try and change you into a more out going person, join clubs be more social, and when it goes wrong and in my case it always does and I spiral into depression and they the psychologist have absolutely no answer.

In my experience they don't like to admit that they have anything to do with the fact that what they said or suggested has not made any improvement for you.
I had one insult me when she had nothing more to suggest.
Saying that it was my fault that the treatment did not work because "You are just like a little child in Kindergarten who always needs someone to hold your hand" said with a disgusted tone in her voice! :sad:

MikeyC said: ↑

Interesting point. I'll bring up how I'm feeling next time I see her and see what she comes up with.

My psychologist was young only 26 at the time, a more experienced psychologist probably has more to offer. I think change is the most difficult concept for people with anxiety for some of us it is just to difficult. Hopefully with the right help you can improve. 🙂

BlueDays said: ↑

In my experience they don't like to admit that they have anything to do with the fact that what they said or suggested has not made any improvement for you.
I had one insult me when she had nothing more to suggest.
Saying that it was my fault that the treatment did not work because "You are just like a little child in Kindergarten who always needs someone to hold your hand" said with a disgusted tone in her voice! :sad:

Unfortunately there are some awful psychologist who have poor people skills little tact and even less empathy. And they have the ability to destroy any improvement in fragile anxiety sufferers.

BlueDays said: ↑

In my experience they don't like to admit that they have anything to do with the fact that what they said or suggested has not made any improvement for you.
I had one insult me when she had nothing more to suggest.
Saying that it was my fault that the treatment did not work because "You are just like a little child in Kindergarten who always needs someone to hold your hand" said with a disgusted tone in her voice! :sad:

That's ridiculous. I'm sorry she said that to you, and you know you're nothing like that.

hidwell said: ↑

My psychologist was young only 26 at the time, a more experienced psychologist probably has more to offer. I think change is the most difficult concept for people with anxiety for some of us it is just to difficult. Hopefully with the right help you can improve. 🙂

I hope I can improve, too. I was going well before this so I am hoping the rest of the year yields more positive results. Your psychologist being so young wouldn't have helped, although the only way they can get experience is by being in the field.

hidwell said: ↑

Unfortunately there are some awful psychologist who have poor people skills little tact and even less empathy. And they have the ability to destroy any improvement in fragile anxiety sufferers.

Unfortunately yes.
She was the first one I ever saw. A few months later I attempted suicide because she made me think there was no hope for me.:oh:
I was only 19 at the time and my youth enabled me to believe what she said.

BlueDays said: ↑

Unfortunately yes.
She was the first one I ever saw. A few months later I attempted suicide because she made me think there was no hope for me.:oh:
I was only 19 at the time and my youth enabled me to believe what she said.

That's so awful. :sad: I'm glad you're still around because you're a wonderful woman.

BlueDays said: ↑

Unfortunately yes.
She was the first one I ever saw. A few months later I attempted suicide because she made me think there was no hope for me.:oh:
I was only 19 at the time and my youth enabled me to believe what she said.

I saw my psychologist when I was 21 and his only suggestion was to live in sheltered accommodation, I obviously didn't take his advice. I'm sorry to hear that your psychologist was so bad that you attempted suicide.

MikeyC said: ↑

That's so awful. :sad: I'm glad you're still around because you're a wonderful woman.

Thanks Mikey.🙂
I agree that you should let your psychologist know exactly how you're feeling, if she is good she will hopefully change her advice to tackle your problems from a different angle. Good luck.🙂

BlueDays said: ↑

Thanks Mikey.🙂
I agree that you should let your psychologist know exactly how you're feeling, if she is good she will hopefully change her advice to tackle your problems from a different angle. Good luck.🙂

I'm not going to see her for about another 5-6 weeks, but I will let her know no matter how I'm feeling then.

I don't know really. My emotions have been off this week, especially during certain times, and I don't know why. I don't know whether it's still PMS or whether it's some sort of underlying confidence/self-esteem issue, but for the life of me I can't figure it out and it's really starting to bug me. I feel a bit depressed when I should be feeling good, and sometimes I want to cry when I should be feeling pretty happy. I mean, I have a lot going on here and yet here I am feeling terrible. Why?? I don't get it, I really don't. 😕 I've never felt so backwards before.