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Razzlecherry

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EscapeArtist said:
****ing ugh I was anxious about school and my lousy appearance since I chopped my hair off, so what did I do, just chopped more off hoping it would somehow help. Greaaaat, now I think I'll stay inside for a year. And I started crying because I have to go to my first class of night school in... 10 minutes. Feel like a MESS. Never realized my social anxiety is more about body image. Hair in tatters = the next year in tatters. mother ****ing lajsdlkdfslk I do'nt know if I'll get to my class now ..
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I do that all the time, well I used to. I wouldn't have the opportunity to have my hair cut, so I cut it myself. Naturally I fudged it up every time I attempted it. Would make me feel terrible, but it's easier for me to force myself to school than having to explain to my parents.
 
coyote

coyote

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EscapeArtist said:
****ing ugh I was anxious about school and my lousy appearance since I chopped my hair off, so what did I do, just chopped more off hoping it would somehow help. Greaaaat, now I think I'll stay inside for a year. And I started crying because I have to go to my first class of night school in... 10 minutes. Feel like a MESS. Never realized my social anxiety is more about body image. Hair in tatters = the next year in tatters. mother ****ing lajsdlkdfslk I do'nt know if I'll get to my class now ..
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hats are in style

it'll be ok
 
Labyrinthine

Labyrinthine

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I'm relatively proud of myself actually. After a serious of events this weekend, I came to the conclusion that I've made some serious strides in the past year. I realized I can talk to complete strangers now without any serious worries. I'm far more comfortable now than I've been since I got sick originally. Silly as it is, I used to struggle just talking to say, a server. That problem seems gone. I'm fine with being my awkward self (though I wouldn't deny a skinnier version ::p:)
At the same time though, I realize that me ever having actual friendships is pretty much nonexistent. I'm not capable it seems. No matter what I do I can't seem to trust anyone. Annoying how I'm literally my own enemy.

I'm going to try to get my permit tomorrow so I can start driving. Nervous since I stopped taking my anti-seizure med since I stopped seeing the neurologist. I also keep thinking about the time I tried driving a golf cart and ran into a bush, and the time my coworker tried to give me a lesson and it ended with a branch attached to the back of the car. LOL. At the same time I'm quite excited. I haven't been able to skate since my mom got a new job. At least I'd be able to drive with my grandfather in the car. In his taped up car, that is. Scary, that.
 
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Amitush123

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Labyrinthine said:
I'm relatively proud of myself actually. After a serious of events this weekend, I came to the conclusion that I've made some serious strides in the past year. I realized I can talk to complete strangers now without any serious worries. I'm far more comfortable now than I've been since I got sick originally. Silly as it is, I used to struggle just talking to say, a server. That problem seems gone. I'm fine with being my awkward self (though I wouldn't deny a skinnier version ::p:)
At the same time though, I realize that me ever having actual friendships is pretty much nonexistent. I'm not capable it seems. No matter what I do I can't seem to trust anyone. Annoying how I'm literally my own enemy.

I'm going to try to get my permit tomorrow so I can start driving. Nervous since I stopped taking my anti-seizure med since I stopped seeing the neurologist. I also keep thinking about the time I tried driving a golf cart and ran into a bush, and the time my coworker tried to give me a lesson and it ended with a branch attached to the back of the car. LOL. At the same time I'm quite excited. I haven't been able to skate since my mom got a new job. At least I'd be able to drive with my grandfather in the car. In his tapped up car, that is. Scary, that.
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It sounds like a big progress, well done! and try not to hit anyone with a car, I still can't manage to take driving lessons due to some disturbing dreams :S
 
Starry

Starry

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Anxious... My mother will be here in around ten minutes and I've been rushing to get all the housework done... Plus I've just put my new corset on.. I always feel anxious when I put them on, until I'm used to the feeling...
 
P+G

P+G

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I've been feeling sad and lonely but I suddenly feel like myself years ago. Even though it's still sad, the familiar feeling is comforting.
 
twiggle

twiggle

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This family holiday has been enjoyable but also a little difficult at times. Too many personalities, including a brother-in-law who thinks that he knows best about everything. What's upsetting is overhearing him disrespect my parents, particularly my dad, when they both seem to think he's perfect.
I am feeling disillusioned right now to be honest. I hate being around my brother in law, who I used to think was cool. I feel that he looks down upon me and my parents and there seem to be a number of comments made under his breath that re-affirm this...And in turn that just makes me feel irritable and want to have my own space, which seems to translate to others as meaning me being 'moody'.
I really dislike people with a superiority complex. In the end, the only superiority is surely the ability to challenge oneself and realise that our opinions and beliefs are not the same thing as the truth.
Hmph. I'm going to have a glass of wine and read a book in bed and try and re-connect with myself. I'm far from perfect, but at least I know that.
 
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Labyrinthine

Labyrinthine

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Annoyed. My mom and grandfather both like to say things along the lines of "I'll let you" or "I'll allow you to", followed by something like "feed the dogs." I've asked my mom to stop numerous times. I have no issues feeding the dogs; I was actually about to go do it without her saying anything. I just find that wording so ridiculous. When I brought it up, I get told that she's sorry I'm so much like my dad. How dare she say something like that? Just because she can't handle not saying something that way. I figure I'm overreacting to an extent, but how hard is it to merely ask. Even just telling me to do it would suffice.
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Very tired, didnae get much sleep last night.

And quite depressed and disappointed in myself. I feel like I'm slippin' back intae old patterns. ::(:
 
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