I don't really know what I am doing. I study a subject I couldn't care less about. I don't have any real life friends, just people on the internet, and even then I am always initiating contact and feel like an annoyance. I don't have much family. I'm not even interested in girls much these days, every now and then there will be one I find attractive, I will get carried away and become infatuated, but inevitably they won't find me attractive. Probably my personality more than my looks, I don't know, maybe both. I see how people that are liked behave and just can't do it, all the insincere brown-nosing. My prospects for happiness are pretty grim. I'm not even sure why I'm bothering typing this.