Prestonator
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How many of you feel there is no way out?
Can you see a light at the end of the tunnel?
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Niteowl
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^what MrJones said. : )
Paahi
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I feel like you on this one.
NihilSlayer
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I think boredom is the most corrosive of the above mentioned foes. I am so tired of lukewarm, petty emotions and mundane happenings. I would rather be truly numb, or full of grandiose sufferings-- at least then one feels alive (although periodic breaks are needed to maintain the mind intact)... Instead it's like being a pot roast in a crockpot-- the slow burn is more tormenting than just being thrown on the hot coals. Maintaining that delicate balance between being a "functional human" and going over the edge is such a tedious affair.
upndwn
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If only I felt like I contributed to the world i any useful manner, but for too long I have been shackled by my insecurity and suffering.
For now it feels like I take more than I give, and what people are saying behind my back isn't helping. Many people just think of me as that lazy loser without a job or family or any productive assets in life.
Now, I don't blame them for being judgmental, it's not like I don't have my own prejudices. But these convictions helps cement me even further into the self-loathing that I've flagelatted myself with these last years.
For now it feels like I take more than I give, and what people are saying behind my back isn't helping. Many people just think of me as that lazy loser without a job or family or any productive assets in life.
Now, I don't blame them for being judgmental, it's not like I don't have my own prejudices. But these convictions helps cement me even further into the self-loathing that I've flagelatted myself with these last years.
ShyChild
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Last night I did. Better now, but I was feeling damaged.
Falkor
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I think there is, it is hard to find but.... I know there is light in the tunnel.
I've seen light in the presence, I'm making progress, I've maintainéd friendships, I'm working to get back in college, tho i was hiding myself for 3 years.... Being afraid of going outside.. even outside the door.
Now I go, to busy places, crowds, and in the past I could not even enter.
I would not even dare to step inside a situation of too many ppl.
Now I DON'T WANNA MISS IT. It's a hell if you cannot get yourself out there and feel helpless of thinking you cannot do it, because you feel so afraid.
The truth is, if you face your fear. You can cope with it. The hardest task... Is facing it. Because it is the exact scenario you'd rather not experience.
But at the same time, people are fighting for experiences.
So if you see all the other people having fun, and making friends and having a career or a relationship, you feel lonely and bored.
I felt this way, for years. Now it's time for a change, and still I'm doomed to be so anxious and fearful, but I build the strenght to face it whatever teh crap i feel, still i run away from situations, but I just want to be there for just a moment. To ''experience'' it. To see that it's not killing me.
My body-mind always is ready for danger, flight mode, afraid of situations.
But I'm tired of living this way, so I'll be kicking myself into a cage of lions and go to school again (one of my biggest fears, being around so many people, having lunch in the cantene,talking to people,presentations... Yup. I will scare myself like crazy and p*ss my pants, but I don't wanna miss so many stuff.
We just need to climb that tunnel ourselfes, the light won't find you, you have to find it.
I've seen light in the presence, I'm making progress, I've maintainéd friendships, I'm working to get back in college, tho i was hiding myself for 3 years.... Being afraid of going outside.. even outside the door.
Now I go, to busy places, crowds, and in the past I could not even enter.
I would not even dare to step inside a situation of too many ppl.
Now I DON'T WANNA MISS IT. It's a hell if you cannot get yourself out there and feel helpless of thinking you cannot do it, because you feel so afraid.
The truth is, if you face your fear. You can cope with it. The hardest task... Is facing it. Because it is the exact scenario you'd rather not experience.
But at the same time, people are fighting for experiences.
So if you see all the other people having fun, and making friends and having a career or a relationship, you feel lonely and bored.
I felt this way, for years. Now it's time for a change, and still I'm doomed to be so anxious and fearful, but I build the strenght to face it whatever teh crap i feel, still i run away from situations, but I just want to be there for just a moment. To ''experience'' it. To see that it's not killing me.
My body-mind always is ready for danger, flight mode, afraid of situations.
But I'm tired of living this way, so I'll be kicking myself into a cage of lions and go to school again (one of my biggest fears, being around so many people, having lunch in the cantene,talking to people,presentations... Yup. I will scare myself like crazy and p*ss my pants, but I don't wanna miss so many stuff.
We just need to climb that tunnel ourselfes, the light won't find you, you have to find it.
vexatiousmind
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I don't know if I am in a tunnel. I think I am in my own world, and the sun shines vary rarely.
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userremoved
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It's hard to say. I can't predict the future. Today I could finally start my new life, or I could get in a fiery car accident and die before the sun sets. I guess thats what makes life exciting.
Moo
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Well I can't see it right now. I feel like I've been going backwards recently. I've made progress in the past but can't really find the strength to keep going.
I can never see myself being totally at ease which is why I always feel like giving up. I'd rather slip further backwards than try extremely hard only to wind up a fraction better off than before.
I don't know if any of that made sense but it's how I feel. Suppose I should probably change my outlook!
I can never see myself being totally at ease which is why I always feel like giving up. I'd rather slip further backwards than try extremely hard only to wind up a fraction better off than before.
I don't know if any of that made sense but it's how I feel. Suppose I should probably change my outlook!
Rembrandt Broam
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I'm not really looking for a light at the end of the tunnel. As long as my eyes are well enough adjusted to the gloom, I'll happily settle for stumbling my way along it.
shybutsexy
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Not really no, i just live because i have to, i cant kill myself cause that would really hurt my parents and i couldnt do that to them. But no, no light, nothing for me to hope from this life.
I want to say ''yes'', and given that if it were all up to progress and upholding the process to the progress, then it would be ''yes''. But to me some people are so darn toxic that whenever I'm doing fine, they drag me right back down again.
It feels a lot like climbing up a steep hill made out of loose sand.
It feels a lot like climbing up a steep hill made out of loose sand.