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This pretty much sums it up for me. I like your panda outfit.
Just wanna find one person whos like me really.
Ye me too . Though I think the chances of that happening are pretty slim as I'm a straight lol. Sometimes I wonder if I was gay maybe I would find someone like me. I think probably not though going by other gay people I've known. I'm just ranting now lol.
So if you could find the right guy who was SA like you do think you would socialize with friends more or do you just want someone who understands you so you're both on the same level emotionally and mentally? ::
Umm yeah emotionally and mentally. I remember when i used to have my best friend around i would socialize with anyone because she was like a security blanket. Like if i got left out i had her with me?
It would be the same if i had a boyfriend. Even if we were like both quiet, weired and the rest of the world didnt understand us i would still be happy because like atleast you have someone. Thats nice.
Do you get what i mean? or not? lol! Now whos rambling?
Ye I think know what you mean. I've never had anyone special like that though. I've had girls use me in the past without me realizing and then they dump me and I've had very shy girls who were interested in me as well but I knocked them back. I think maybe I was scared of getting close to someone who was shy like me because in the past I used to force myself to be outgoing and used to be blinkered to a lot of stuff which would make me paranoid and I used to go out with girls that were more outgoing to keep up this pretense. Ever since I got SA big time I've been in confusion over what type of women I'm attracted to. Which is convenient now I repel them. ::
I'm sorry to hear that
Dating is very hard anyway and to add on the problem of anxiety and paranoia makes it worse!
And i guess yeah dating someone the same as you sometimes could be more of a problem than a blessing.
I've dated outgoing guys in the past and its cool because some never even realised i had social anxiety and they just take you out of your comfort zone and have fun but i can never keep it up and stay with them for ages.
Thanks for the chat, aims.
Same to you. im tired im going to bed.. Lol
Night, night then ::