There are times when i adopt the misanthrope attitude, if i'm feeling rather bitter and angsty but i'd never tag myself with that description, its unhealthy to live by labels because change occurs in endless cycles ...
certainly its easy to become annoyed and distant from people that are clearly doing the rworng thing, like i become angry when i watch tv and see all these advertisements of fake people selling their insincere stories for cash to sell a product ..or when a Mcdonalds add comes in, AS IF THEY NEED advertising, there are outlets in every suburb across the world, so evil empires like that and sales people, sales people are the worst especially the ones that are so clearly fake and will say any old thing to get a sale ..
then there are people who just have the wrong opinions on current events and news that its sickening ...
but i'm particularly bitter towards bosses and management and often people i work with in authority, there is a universal attitude that you must earn their respect and you feel like a slave and they try and make you think that they are superior in role thus are superior as a being(not everyone is like that though)
most jobs in general are like this or have been for me and i really dont know how to deal with it other then ignoring, honestly i'd rather not be involved at all but how else do i earn a wage, either work for myself or free-lance thats the goal for me ..
even a company telling me to be somewhere by this time and lunch starts and finishes at these times, you are telling me how to live, this makes me very bitter and unhappy
its like selling my soul to the devil, and anything that involves that sort of dedication deserves a lot of money in return to even get me there in the first place, especially 5 days a week, i cant stand the adult life and responsibility of earning enough to live and what it entails, sorry but its not my cup of tea unless its 100% worth doing, i envy artists that can make money off of contracts doing what they love, my favourite bands and painters were lucky enough to live life doing what they love for a living on their own time ..
this will seem extreme but when i worked full-time for 3 years as a printer i felt suicidal knowing what i was doing was against my morals of giving my time to a business for ordinary pay when my heart was telling me to live by my rules and to even life on the streets until i found my stride in the career of my dream, but i needed money to rent ....and this all in my late-teens to early twenties which is now and already the prospect of working another 20 years for companies that i dont care about and that it steals away my time is a horrible prospect and i dont see any positives in that
now i'm back at university i keep thinking i'll be working for a degree that'll lead to a job that i'll most likely not be happy in as it'll entail what ive already described, even though i enjoy the conent and subject of the course this doesnt mean i'll have control of my own work at a job ...
so yehhhh