awkwardamanda
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I'm tired of going places alone. I like being alone. I like shopping and doing errands alone. I just don't like going alone to places where I'm expected to socialize. I'm tired of showing up alone at parties and events where most people would go with a date or with friends. It gets old. I'm always the odd one out, sitting in a corner or standing around by myself, hardly associating with anybody. It's horribly uncomfortable. All I want to do is leave.
There's a local tradition where I live; people throw fundraising "socials," usually before weddings and for various other reasons. You rent a hall, hire a DJ, and sell tickets to whoever wants to go. I hate them. One of my friends is getting married next year and just had her social. She came in from out of town and since I don't really see her anymore I couldn't exactly not go. It was awful. I've met her other friends, but I don't know them very well. I really just feel like an outcast around them. I stood around like a loser all night. The wedding is gonna be worse. On top of showing up alone, I'm going to have fly to another city alone, stay in a hotel alone, and ride in a taxi alone (which I dread the most).
I've never actually brought a date to a wedding. I was the guest once, but that was a long time ago. For the past few years I've had at least one wedding a year and I'm tired of never bringing anyone along. Most of time, they're family weddings, so at least I know other people, but I did go to one last year where I really didn't know anyone other than the bride and groom. That was awkward hell. My brother is getting married next year too. I'm pretty sure that's gonna be a whole other level of awful.
Parties suck. I just feel like such a loner. I like being a loner when I'm actually alone, just not when I'm in the middle of a bunch of people socializing.
There's a local tradition where I live; people throw fundraising "socials," usually before weddings and for various other reasons. You rent a hall, hire a DJ, and sell tickets to whoever wants to go. I hate them. One of my friends is getting married next year and just had her social. She came in from out of town and since I don't really see her anymore I couldn't exactly not go. It was awful. I've met her other friends, but I don't know them very well. I really just feel like an outcast around them. I stood around like a loser all night. The wedding is gonna be worse. On top of showing up alone, I'm going to have fly to another city alone, stay in a hotel alone, and ride in a taxi alone (which I dread the most).
I've never actually brought a date to a wedding. I was the guest once, but that was a long time ago. For the past few years I've had at least one wedding a year and I'm tired of never bringing anyone along. Most of time, they're family weddings, so at least I know other people, but I did go to one last year where I really didn't know anyone other than the bride and groom. That was awkward hell. My brother is getting married next year too. I'm pretty sure that's gonna be a whole other level of awful.
Parties suck. I just feel like such a loner. I like being a loner when I'm actually alone, just not when I'm in the middle of a bunch of people socializing.