Oh good - thanks for starting this.
Hello everyone. 41 year old guy here, researching and reading up on this 'condition' that appears to ail me. This site is actually a bit intimidating in it's numbers, but since I'm finding such good posts and info, maybe someone can help me.
A little background: I'm one of the long term unemployed after a short career of ten years after college. I've been single since my early twenties, I believe mostly due to being too shy. But now I feel like my chances are nil due to my lack of work, money, etc. For now I've been housesitting for my parents and their friends, but it is a far cry from real work.
I've been living in country setting - where I have lots of outdoor work and hiking trails to keep me busy in spite of not having a job. But whenever I go to a nearby city to housesit, something weird happens.
I literally am sitting indoors for weeks at a time with the shades drawn, only going out for groceries. I read, watch mind numbing TV (something I don't normally have or want) and surf internet. But every time I go out, I feel watched, judged, like everyone somehow knows I am this unemployed loser, and I go racing back to my 'prison.' It was never easy for me to make new friends before, but at least I would go out and make feeble efforts. Now I can't even leave the house. So I guess I fear I am getting worse, with the addition of other life 'stressors.'
I was really hoping that my time in the city would be productive, that I would meet new friends, and maybe get a place of my own. Any advice or insights would be appreciated.