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SilentAndShy

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So tired of smarmy, haughty people s******ing in front of me about my perceived weaknesses. So called cousins of mine. Well, **** you. Don't moan when I don't engage when you try to belittle me in front of other people because you can. I'd rather have a stranger as a cousin than you. Thanks. /rant
 
BlackPuma

BlackPuma

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This upcoming Thursday I'm going to the house for orientation, first rent and the keys.. so I'm pre packing all the essentials.

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Sarah_M

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I avoided Snapchat for a long time, but got roped in yesterday. It's a fun app, but I notice myself getting addicted to the filters because they alter my appearance and make me look 1,000 times more pretty. The floral crown is my favorite - it makes me look the way I wish I looked in real life.
 
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Hot_Tamale

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Time for another revelation: I've been like Anton Chigurh, the antagonist in the film No Country for Old Men, always able to keep my emotions from influencing my actions and not showing weakness. I actively made 2 attempts to end my life in the Spring of 2016 and failed twice but now it feels like the clock has been reset and when it hits zero again I will then make another attempt. I will actively try my best to keep this from happening again though.
 
AtTheGates

AtTheGates

Banned
Hot_Tamale said:
Time for another revelation: I've been like Anton Chigurh, the antagonist in the film No Country for Old Men, always able to keep my emotions from influencing my actions and not showing weakness. I actively made 2 attempts to end my life in the Spring of 2016 and failed twice but now it feels like the clock has been reset and when it hits zero again I will then make another attempt. I will actively try my best to keep this from happening again though.
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general rule of thumb in life: dont be like Anton Chigurh. lol jk




also, forget that clock. suicide isn't the answer.

check this out. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PNXvHdBEeUI
 
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Hot_Tamale

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AtTheGates said:
general rule of thumb in life: dont be like Anton Chigurh. lol jk




also, forget that clock. suicide isn't the answer.

check this out.
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That's a pretty old clip lol but it's still interesting :popcorn:

I didn't know he came up with the idea for the Rocky movie series himself. While I still have a lot to live for I won't kill myself, there's a lot of solutions to try way before that.
 
theslowesthand

theslowesthand

Banned
AtTheGates said:
also, forget that clock. suicide isn't the answer
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No, it just seems to be the only solution, when all else has failed, when you're in a downwards spiral, and when you have zero hope of getting better in the future. Kind of like how i'm feeling at present. :sad:
 
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FountainandFairfax

FountainandFairfax

in a VAN down by the RIVER
Sarah_M said:
I avoided Snapchat for a long time, but got roped in yesterday. It's a fun app, but I notice myself getting addicted to the filters because they alter my appearance and make me look 1,000 times more pretty. The floral crown is my favorite - it makes me look the way I wish I looked in real life.
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Now I want to see.
 
vj288

vj288

not actually Fiona Apple
I started, finished, and sent out a resume and cover letter to a job. Getting them done took me the better part of two days, and I doubt I'll get the job, but I feel good about taking the first step in what feels like the right direction.
 
BlackPuma

BlackPuma

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vj288 said:
I started, finished, and sent out a resume and cover letter to a job. Getting them done took me the better part of two days, and I doubt I'll get the job, but I feel good about taking the first step in what feels like the right direction.
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Whether you get the job or not, putting yourself out there to be hired is a pretty big achievement in itself.

What is the job you're applying for?
 
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Hot_Tamale

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Sarah_M said:
The filter brightened the room, enhanced my eyes, softened my features and made my complexion better. I really wish I looked like this, though.
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Whether it's a man or a woman it always feels nice to mentally connect a face with a username.. thanks I guess.
 
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Sarah_M

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Hot_Tamale said:
Whether it's a man or a woman it always feels nice to mentally connect a face with a username.. thanks I guess.
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You're welcome...I guess? lol I was just showing my face using a Snapchat filter that makes me look more visually appealing, but I'm happy to connect a face to a name :thumbup:
 
theslowesthand

theslowesthand

Banned
I hardly see my parents as it is, now what? I feel as if i should see them more often. Should but don't. But then there's MANY things i should do but don't. I feel i can't change my (hermit) lifestyle now, like it's set in stone.
 
vj288

vj288

not actually Fiona Apple
BlackPuma said:
Whether you get the job or not, putting yourself out there to be hired is a pretty big achievement in itself.

What is the job you're applying for?
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It's a remote entry level researcher position at a personal finance website. Basically, from what I could gather from the job listing, I would be responsible for compiling date for articles on their website. A specific example they used was how much rental car company's charge underage drivers. It sounds right up my alley, I like me some date gathering :thumbup:
 
BlackPuma

BlackPuma

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vj288 said:
It's a remote entry level researcher position at a personal finance website. Basically, from what I could gather from the job listing, I would be responsible for compiling date for articles on their website. A specific example they used was how much rental car company's charge underage drivers. It sounds right up my alley, I like me some date gathering :thumbup:
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Oh, that's sound rather fun and structured, yet diverse for each collection.
 
AtTheGates

AtTheGates

Banned
well I put in my two weeks notice today to the unit manager . she said Im supposed to tell the captain but said she'd pass the message along. apparently I have to turn my uniforms in but I'm going to ask them if I can hang on to them because I might be coming back as a level 3 corrections officer some day (currently level 2)...i'll have to anyway if I decide to look into becoming a parole officer eventually.

we had a few new C.O's start today and all of them got assigned to dorms 3 and 4...lol..I feel so bad for them because thats where they send all the new C.O.'s . i'll put it this way, things are NEVER calm over there.

anyway I'm really ready to start college. I was worried at first but I'm trying to get into the mindset of being EXCITED to take these classes .




only problem is I have A.D.H.D so fvcking bad its not even funny.:idontknow:
 
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Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
My trust has been broken yet again... :sad:

Don't ye just love when yer immediate family are a bunch of lying, disrespectful, manipulative radical, man-hatin' feminist bitches?! :eek:h: :thumbdown:
 
vj288

vj288

not actually Fiona Apple
BlackPuma said:
Oh, that's sound rather fun and structured, yet diverse for each collection.
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It does, whether or not they contact me I'm more optimistic about finding a job than I have ever been because of it. Just the idea that there are jobs out there that I feel I would fit into nicely, and also would fit me, is something I've never felt on such a real level.
 
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