Things might be looking up right now im trying to get into a 3 week course school for cdl driving my mom said she might join me....lol. Also i went up the the social security office and hopefully i can get a disability check in about three months. You should try applying for diability with Social Security. You might have the symtoms of a mental illness ( no pun intended...lol) and could get a check they told me if approved i can get a check for $600-900 dollars a month. Hey money is money. You should try