It is the desire to have a girlfriend/wife, a true soul-mate. It's the desire for love.
I don't know if the thing that's causing me to want this is some kind of spirit, or a part of my brain, but whatever it is, it's definitely engerized with evil. Total, complete, pure evil.
It's automatic, it's not my fault, I don't have a choice. I've tried to eliminate the need for romantic love completely, but no matter what I did, it's still there.
So I've tried to seek out love, and I decided not to give up. Because whenever I tried to give up, and clear my mind of the need for it, that put a strain of my body and made me sick. So...I got to do it, for the sake of my physical health.
