Not really knowing too much about your situation, I can offer you some help only as to how I kept from going too deep into a depression when I feel very low..I am not sure if you're a spiritual person or not, and tbh I don't consider myself too much of one, but I cannot get enough of the messages Eckhart Tolle has in his books and videos on how to heal yourself. I looked for an applicable one for you based on your words but could only find this one that maybe would be good for you to reflect on? Let me know what you think and as I said before I am and everyone else here to, is here for You so don't stop trying to get through this dark time, don't do it alone. *hugs* and hope** QA Sample - Dealing With Anger, Resistance and Pessimism - YouTube