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Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Marc7 said:
Have you overcame them yet?
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Nope! Still working on it. Though I think putting some emotional and physical distance between me and my family would help.

Marc7 said:
That's good! The oldest sister of your sisters moved out right? She is the same sister who agrees with you?
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Aye, that's the one.

Marc7 said:
Oh.
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Yeah, and the middle sister had the nerve to call me "overly dramatic" when I said out loud that:
"Ah feel like killing masel, sometimes. Don't know why ah continue to put up with this shite!"​

Which seemed totally valid to me. Since I've had to quietly listen to and endure the endless arguments since I was 10. Like, I have zero memories of an argument with my older sister where it didn't breakdown to her shouting over ye.

Marc7 said:
Wow, your mother said that directly to you?
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Yep! When I asked if she'd even considered how I've been feeling within the last year, her exact words in response to me were: "Oh, don't start! That's not the point -- what about me?" :sad:

lily said:
Oh ok, i understand it better now, sorry to hear that. if you could shut it out for a while, while you're out that'll be great!
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It would... but, sadly, my family have a habit of dwelling on the negative. At least when it comes the attitudes of my mother and older sister. And they have a tendency to make me the scapegoat for their issues. Somehow I'm always to blame. :idontknow:
 
theslowesthand

theslowesthand

Banned
One of the 3 chooks is "on the way out" which is sad. She seemed fine a couple days ago. I guess the cold weather has got to her? I've put her in front of my fan heater, on a paper towel, but she hasn't perked-up (i thought she was just cold). No, its terminal. So i'm saying my goodbyes to her in my mind. "Betty" is the name i gave her. She has seemed old since we got her a couple/so years ago. I initially called her "#3". So long betty-boo-boo ... it's just a little bit longer before you're free as a bird & you will be able to fly properly like the birds of the skies...

I'm thinking of this quote "All things must pass".

:sad: :crying:
 
PugofCrydee

PugofCrydee

You want to know how I got these scars?
Update..

Jack and I had a lovely evening.. we sipped and slurped, his company really made me feel more relaxed.
I became less inhibited and toward the end of the night, I took a last taste.. slurped, gulped and...yes.. I swallowed!
I admit it!! I was naughty.. I swallowed Jack's wonderful liquid, down the back of my throat..

Oh my.. have I said too much? ...
 
PugofCrydee

PugofCrydee

You want to know how I got these scars?
theslowesthand said:
One of the 3 chooks is "on the way out" which is sad. She seemed fine a couple days ago. I guess the cold weather has got to her? I've put her in front of my fan heater, on a paper towel, but she hasn't perked-up (i thought she was just cold). No, its terminal. So i'm saying my goodbyes to her in my mind. "Betty" is the name i gave her. She has seemed old since we got her a couple/so years ago. I initially called her "#3". So long betty-boo-boo ... it's just a little bit longer before you're free as a bird & you will be able to fly properly like the birds of the skies...

I'm thinking of this quote "All things must pass".

:sad: :crying:
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I have some chooks too. 2 of them recently died, they where 3-4 years old, had stopped laying about 6 months ago. Then one died, the other soon aftter.

All I thought was "Valar Morghulis".. but in this case it was "all chickens must die"..
 
theslowesthand

theslowesthand

Banned
Well yesterday, it appears Betty (chook) was asleep - as SUDDENLY she opened her eyes, stood up, flapped wings a bit. Then she gradually made her way to my bed (i figured she must want to be in the afternoon sun, so i placed her on the bed). Then she started looking out the window at the grass & trees. So it seemed she was a wee bit restless, and wanting out (now that she was warm), so not long later i put her back in the coup.

This morning (late morning), she is still breathing, and is in a "ball" which is her typical pose, with her head turned backwards & resting in her feathers. Later i will see if she wants to eat something (weetbix soaked in water). But i doubt she'll want to eat, as she barely ate anything yesterday, when she was with me.
 
Graeme1988

Graeme1988

Hie yer hence from me heath!
Absolutely roasting... not used to the weather being so warm. :bigsmile: And I’m totally knackered, feel like I’ve barely slept in the last 3 days.

Things seems to going well - jinx! Well, aside from oldest sister hurting her right foot recently. My older sister - the middle child - is oddly positive, which is very outta character for her. :giggle: Considering how things were this time last year. :eek:mg:
 
theslowesthand

theslowesthand

Banned
lily said:
For me here, it has been like summer but it'll be like spring later on. i like that. i slept in to a nice event going on for me and others and slept even more than that bc i was hungry and there was no real food to eat today but then i started trying to do positive things.
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It's good that you're dwelling on the positives & not the other way round it. :thumbup:
 
theslowesthand

theslowesthand

Banned
Looks: I'm often/usually unhappy/dissatisfied with my looks. Sometimes i think i look really good, other times really bad. Maybe my hair affects it? It's always been a love/hate (but mainly hate) relationship. :confused: :kickingmyself:
 
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PugofCrydee

PugofCrydee

You want to know how I got these scars?
theslowesthand said:
Looks: I'm often/usually unhappy/dissatisfied with my looks. Sometimes i think i look really good, other times really bad. Maybe my hair affects it? It's always been a love/hate (but mainly hate) relationship. :confused: :kickingmyself:
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Yea I'm always seeing myself as definitely NOT attractive.
 
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