How are you feeling?

[Graeme1988]

Still awake at twenty past three f*ckin' morning... !! :kickingmyself: Urgh! I hate this... So much going on in my head. Stress, music ideas, my pending moving outta the family home. Ah wish my mind would just settle down.

 

[FountainandFairfax]

I pulled a muscle sleeping.

 

[Hot_Tamale]

I pulled a muscle sleeping.

OWW! I pulled my calf muscle once just by stretching my legs in bed after waking up...at least I think I pulled it, I'll never truly know. It felt like someone tried to tear the meat off my bone for a second and I couldn't move my leg so I just covered my face with my pillow.

 

[Graeme1988]

:sad: :crying: :kickingmyself:

 

[PugofCrydee]

But, like 3 days in, if you mention the sunny weather, the typical Scottish response is complaining about it's too warm ("roasting hot"). :bigsmile:

35 here tomorrow, 38 Friday, then 42 for sat and sun. I'll be down the beach on those days with a few coldies :thumbup:

 

[Graeme1988]

35 here tomorrow, 38 Friday, then 42 for sat and sun. I'll be down the beach on those days with a few coldies :thumbup:

:thumbup: It's been snowing here. Although it's being to thaw now.
Still, it's a good excuse to stay in doors and play my guitar or keyboard.

 

[Hot_Tamale]

I've been feeling like a fight for the past 2 weeks. I want conflict, I want to argue with somebody. It sounds weird but true.

I'm too nice of a person. I want to let loose.

 

[theslowesthand]

Sorry for delay, as big things have happened these past 2 weeks, and been unable to get on web. Took an overdose (to try to comitt suicide, or at least see how close i can get). Then i reacted to the pills, with unable to stand up, light headed upon any exertion (even turning in bed), hands very shaky. So called ambulance, which in hindsight was a bad idea, as that made parents throw me out of the house i'm renting off them, saying its a health hazrd (a pathetic excuse). So now i'm homeless, living in a caravan on their section temporarily until i can find another place. Haven't been this unhappy for a long time. Had no spw, no music, no brain audios (to calm me) .. but i did buy some liquor .. dad took the beer off me (as he THINKS it makes me violent), but i hid the bottle of vodka in my clothes bag, & been drinking that last few days, tho running out soon & don't know how i'll handle that. I'm feeling quite a lot of bottled-up aggressive restlessness. Still wish i were dead. I can't see a way foward out of this, but i guess i'll just have to wait & see - nothing else i can do.

 

[Graeme1988]

Sorry for delay, as big things have happened these past 2 weeks, and been unable to get on web. Took an overdose (to try to comitt suicide, or at least see how close i can get). Then i reacted to the pills, with unable to stand up, light headed upon any exertion (even turning in bed), hands very shaky. So called ambulance, which in hindsight was a bad idea, as that made parents throw me out of the house i'm renting off them, saying its a health hazrd (a pathetic excuse). So now i'm homeless, living in a caravan on their section temporarily until i can find another place. Haven't been this unhappy for a long time. Had no spw, no music, no brain audios (to calm me) .. but i did buy some liquor .. dad took the beer off me (as he THINKS it makes me violent), but i hid the bottle of vodka in my clothes bag, & been drinking that last few days, tho running out soon & don't know how i'll handle that. I'm feeling quite a lot of bottled-up aggressive restlessness. Still wish i were dead. I can't see a way foward out of this, but i guess i'll just have to wait & see - nothing else i can do.

Oh... f*ck! That was tough to read through for me. Sorry to hear things have been rough lately. :sad:

Wish I could offer advice, but I don't what to say, really. Other than I hope things improve for you. Sorry, I know me saying that isn't going make yer situation better, but.. :idontknow:

 

[Graeme1988]

I've been feeling like a fight for the past 2 weeks. I want conflict, I want to argue with somebody. It sounds weird but true.

I'm too nice of a person. I want to let loose.

I can relate. But am no spoiling for a fight or arguement cuz, to me, that's just family life. Oops!
Phrased that wrong, that isn't meant to seem like a joke, but if ye laugh... :thumbup: :bigsmile:

 

[Graeme1988]

Had a surprisingly productive day yesterday. Uncluttered my computer desk a wee bit. Then spent a few hours just playing my piano keyboard, - something I haven't done since July last year - and came up with a couple melodies that I might try and turn into instrumentals? :thinking: :idontknow: Need to work on 'em, and ask my oldest sister's opinion of them. As she's basically my co-producer at this point.

 

[PugofCrydee]

:thumbup: It's been snowing here. Although it's being to thaw now.
Still, it's a good excuse to stay in doors and play my guitar or keyboard.

Yea I love cold days, but rather than stay in I'm usually out in it.

I love going down the beach cause there's usually not many people down there then. And those that are, I get the feeling enjoy the solitude and cold weather too :thumbup: like me.

 

[Graeme1988]

Overall, just trying to keep my mind occupied instead of wondering when things will get back to normal. :sad:

 

[PugofCrydee]

Had a surprisingly productive day yesterday. Uncluttered my computer desk a wee bit. Then spent a few hours just playing my piano keyboard, - something I haven't done since July last year - and came up with a couple melodies that I might try and turn into instrumentals? :thinking: :idontknow: Need to work on 'em, and ask my oldest sister's opinion of them. As she's basically my co-producer at this point.

Awaiting your album with great anticipation matey! Let me know when its due for release :thumbup:

 

[PugofCrydee]

i like going to the park when it's not that cold

So... when it's warm?..

 

[Graeme1988]

Awaiting your album with great anticipation matey! Let me know when its due for release :thumbup:

Well, I would've had a few songs uploaded to SoundCloud by last summer. Got 15 instrumentals done between April and July 2017. But dysfunctional family BS put that on hiatus. :sad: Recently got back into the swing of things, so I'll see how it goes. Not sure what direction to go in, though? :thinking: :idontknow:

 

[Graeme1988]

Don't want to celebrate too soon... Och, f*ck it!
Ma older sister's been offered a two bedroom ground flat - or apartment as the Yanks would say - for her and her kids. And... it's permanent accommodation, unless she puts in for a transfer to another town.

 

[Graeme1988]

that's funny your dance

Thanks. Got those from a different website.
Because this: would drastically under sold how am feelin' right. :bigsmile:

Jeez! A night out in Glasgow last night, I'm getting back into making music and my older sister is finally going to stop using the family home as a second nursery for her kids. She's been living in temporary accommodation, she'd still come round, everyday. Staying from mid-day til half past 5 in the evening. Which ah wus'nae too happy about... cuz she can expected our Mum to do everything for her. Anyway, I'm hoping she doesn't start this "It's not good enough. It's not what I used to" carry on, again. :thumbdown:

 

[Graeme1988]

No great, but happy nonetheless. Outta shape, oh don't even...

Can't sleep, don't care. Ah'll be laughing if things get back to normal afore my birthday. I mean, am laughing now, but that cuz, well... the last 5 months. Stressful, depressing and... hilarious. For me, at least. :bigsmile: Except Christmas, just past, that wus $h!%. :thumbdown: Everything else - potential comedy material for the stage or a sitcom ? :question: :idontknow:

 

[lily]

Thanks. Got those from a different website.
Because this: would drastically under sold how am feelin' right. :bigsmile:

how do you download more smileys?