First of all I did not write that above statement, I picked it up from Tumblr..
Second of all, this is how society views people with SA and depression. Losers, failures, etc. They dont give a f**k about what you think or how you feel and they wont take it as a justification and yes some will hurt you cuz you're not gonna stand up for yourself. You people really think that people will tolerate social anxiety? They will laugh at you and personally they have no business to learn about one's weaknesses. Neither do it have any concern to learn people's businesses; this is how the world runs..
Third, people never will want you or enjoy your company if you will be insecure or not a confident person. I myself would put off weirdos because they dont add anything to my life; they instead waste my time with their setbacks and issues which they alone can solve..
Fourth, I have been in absolute deep **** and the reason for that is because I always ran away from running my own life and taking responsibility of my life. Sitting at times due to laziness, fear, hesitation and being too stuck inside my head to see the material reality that exists in-front of me. Like I said before I have tried to end my own life but guess what; nobody will give a **** about it, in case you think you are trying to get any attention by justifying your pain or misery.
Fifth, I have met people with 3x the confidence, character and relationships yet they have far more ****ed up insecurities but managed to live a successful life.
Sixth, **** SA and **** depression; the biggest waste of my time and the biggest pile of bull**** I ever fell for. Believing this **** made my life even worse and more devastating and discovering how much of an idiot I am putting lies inside my head to justify my **** ups in life.
So the next time you want to hang out with someone you expect he will accept your SA, well think twice. Nobody gives a **** about you or your miserable life; all they want is your pleasant company and if you are going to be a whiny bitch then its no surprise nobody wants to hang out with you.
Society with its harshness and sometimes unfair judgments makes far more sense that all the **** you would pick up from doctors, medication, psychiatry, self help, therapy and this ****. This is real life and it is **** and I like the fact I am learning to accept this reality everyday.. Then you will know how to live life to the fullest; when you know **** is soo deep that you dont give a f**k anymore and will live it up..
I find this interesting, as the feeling is pretty mutual fo me on not caring what society thinks, does, says, about me. I go about my life quite happy and content to have my own existence outside of society. Oh sure i interact with and am a part of it to an extent, everyone has to eat, work, and live. But outside of working, just as a means to an end, i really live isolated from society. And to me thats fine. Sure, im scared of most people. I hate most people. And really, i dont really have much desire to change. Does that make me a coward?. Some would say sure, some would say no, some wouldnt care either way as long as im not blocking their way to get to the mall. The point is i dont think theres any real right or wrong answer. Its all about what you feel content with. Strangely enough now when people insult me i really feel nothing, jsut plain indifference. I shrug and go back to work or playing games at home or just living my quiet personal happy existence.
Im on medication for anxiety and depression. And honestly im so much better with it, its helped me do things i cuoldnt have done before. Some would say jut buck up and do it, face your fears, ect ect. Thats great for them. But i cant, or well i should say i CAN, but not without falling to pieces and exhausting the crap out of myself. Id much rather have to take a pill every day if it works for me so i can live a somewhat semblence of a normal life. I recognize this doesnt always work for others, hence why i say see your doctor. Do companies make money off us?. Yes, absolutely. But thats just part of living in a capitalist western society. It is what it is. I know my doc genuienly wants to help me, and i trust him implicitly.
That said i can most def understand and respect if someones had different experiences, ect, which may or may not have turned them away from certain things, or helped them form certain opinions. The events of our lives and the wiring of brain nuerons form a unique individual within every one of us. ANd no two people are the same, so of course what works for some wont work for others. Thats just how it is.
At the end of the day you need to cast aside what others may or may not say or think. it matters not. What matters is if YOU can be happy with YOURSELF. and if your not, do what you feel is right to work towards making yourself happy. Because honestly, life is too short to dwell on things like this. Which is one of the reasons i really dont need other people in my day to day life. *shrug*.
im strange or a outcast or weak because i have SA or depression?.
Meh
*goes back to reading stephen king novel*