...It's my loneliness more than anything that's killing me...I sit inside everyday all day long. Alone. While everyone works...people keep telling me they're here for me that it'll get better but its not. I'm not even licensed to drive yet I got my license last year and no ones made any attempt to help me....it expires in a year...so here I sit everyday doing nothing being alone...checking facebook for nothing...no contact no one writes to me. No one calls me. No one in my life makes good on the promises they say they'll keep. And so I sit here. Doing nothing....all the while wishing I could just die...some days I feel like just slicing open the vein in my wrists....because that would be so much better than this....loneliness
Thanks you guys, I know I need to get out there and try, I do try. I ask people to hang out to do stuff... although I am agoraphobic I try my best...its the only way to try to get over it. But people break promises they don't see me... I want to take driving lessons but don't have the money to...half of my money goes towards rent... I just feel like I need people way more than they need me...I tell people I miss them...no one ever tells me they need or miss me...only when I feel this way they say it'll get better.. It doesn't. I have wanted to do volunteer work in my area for a while but don't know where to begin...if I can volunteer outside it would be a better way of slowly integrating back into the real world. I want to do these things... but people doubt me...causing me to doubt myself...and then they leave me alone all the time to live their lives... I don't have support...but I guess I do in a small way with people writing to me on here. I just wish I could have human contact and friends and a real outside life again... I'm just hurting. Thanks for the positive feedback though, it's very much appreciated.
Try searching online for volunteer opportunities in your area. You may find a clearinghouse that refers volunteers to other agencies and can help you locate a position suited to your needs and abilities. You'll discover that volunteering brings rewards that far outweigh any time or energy you might invest, and your efforts will be truly appreciated by those you help. Good luck!I have wanted to do volunteer work in my area for a while but don't know where to begin...if I can volunteer outside it would be a better way of slowly integrating back into the real world.
...It's my loneliness more than anything that's killing me...I sit inside everyday all day long. Alone. While everyone works...people keep telling me they're here for me that it'll get better but its not. I'm not even licensed to drive yet I got my license last year and no ones made any attempt to help me....it expires in a year...so here I sit everyday doing nothing being alone...checking facebook for nothing...no contact no one writes to me. No one calls me. No one in my life makes good on the promises they say they'll keep. And so I sit here. Doing nothing....all the while wishing I could just die...some days I feel like just slicing open the vein in my wrists....because that would be so much better than this....loneliness