Invisibleman
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I wish I could say im feeling more than meh but I cant.
How are you feeling?
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theslowesthand
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Due to spw site problems, this is for a couple hours ago (still applies)...
(made into a little poem)
grumbly grumbly, grumble grumble grumble, grumble-guts
no joy, just getting stuck in ruts
complaining, explaining ... misery remaining
(made into a little poem)
grumbly grumbly, grumble grumble grumble, grumble-guts
no joy, just getting stuck in ruts
complaining, explaining ... misery remaining
MikeyC
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I'm here if you need me.
So people you knew years ago who you don't like will be going around to your place? That sounds like the recipe for a terrible night! I hope it goes well for you.Kind of like throwing up, shaking with anxiety, and a little shocked.
An ex friend just called me. I didn't know it was her at first, because she was using my friend's phone (came up as her name/number), and it definitely didn't sound like her on the phone. Anyway, I haven't talked to her in months and when we did talk, we basically weren't even friends then since we had a falling out (definitely not a good one). The last I knew she moved to Texas with her husband, but apparently they got back Monday and are moving in the next town over.
So, she just jumps the question on me, "Hey, mind if we - " I had no idea who she was with so I asked, "Who's we?" "R, W, and I come over and visit for a bit? We'll be over in an hour!" I felt I didn't even have a way out of this one, so I caved in. The other person (W) I was never friends with either, I just talked to her occasionally in school because she would always try to start a conversation with me when we were in the library. She loved to spread rumors and was a bit annoying though, so I kept my distance most of the time. (I sound rude saying that. I'm sorry!) So yeah, I feel like I got cornered into doing something I don't want to do.
Why can't I just have the night to myself? ::
Phoenixx
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^ They ended up staying here a little over an hour. It was definitely awkward for a while though. We'd have a small conversation, then it would go quiet. Seemed like none of us knew what to say to each other besides "Hi, how are you?", "How have things been?", and "What are you doing these days?"Kind of like throwing up, shaking with anxiety, and a little shocked.
An ex friend just called me. I didn't know it was her at first, because she was using my friend's phone (came up as her name/number), and it definitely didn't sound like her on the phone. Anyway, I haven't talked to her in months and when we did talk, we basically weren't even friends then since we had a falling out (definitely not a good one). The last I knew she moved to Texas with her husband, but apparently they got back Monday and are moving in the next town over.
So, she just jumps the question on me, "Hey, mind if we - " I had no idea who she was with so I asked, "Who's we?" "R, W, and I come over and visit for a bit? We'll be over in an hour!" I felt I didn't even have a way out of this one, so I caved in. The other person (W) I was never friends with either, I just talked to her occasionally in school because she would always try to start a conversation with me when we were in the library. She loved to spread rumors and was a bit annoying though, so I kept my distance most of the time. (I sound rude saying that. I'm sorry!) So yeah, I feel like I got cornered into doing something I don't want to do.
Why can't I just have the night to myself? :
It was weird just being around them and hearing about their lives, I definitely felt really uncomfortable. My ex friend is married, about to start a new job (as well as her husband), moving into a new place soon, starting online school in the fall, and already wanting to have kids. The other girl is engaged and living with her fiance and is planning on getting married in March. She doesn't have a job yet and held off school so she could focus on her marriage. All this and they're 19. And here I am, almost 19, never had a boyfriend, haven't had an actual job in almost 3 years, don't have my license so I can't exactly get one too easily, I'm living with my parents, and I'm just going to school. When I'm not in school or doing homework, I'm in front of the computer. Yeah, certainly makes me feel pathetic.
I managed to get one compliment though. At least she said it was a compliment. Didn't sound like it though. Said, "You look like you lost 50 pounds!"
*I just kind of laughed* "Because I was that much heavier before?" "No, you weren't fat before, but you're just really skinny now." Either way I look at it, I can't find that comment to be that reassuring. :|Oh, but at least she took the tv and the stereo that's been sitting in my room for the last two weeks. I was going to just take it to salvation army, but since she was moving in to a new place, I asked her if she wanted them. She was already looking for a tv, so she decided to take it and then took the stereo for the heck of it. No more tripping over that stuff in my room.
Phoenixx
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^ I knew them last year, and have known them since 6th grade. It's a long story, but the one girl (W) I was never friends with (she just hanged with my other friends a lot) and the other girl I used to be really good friends with back in middle school, but she changed a lot during that time. She got to where she would tease me constantly (like I wasn't teased enough in school), lie to my face, talk about me behind my back, etc. She did this through high school too. We had a really bad falling out once before, but last year was enough for me. I finally decided to cut ties with her and wouldn't really talk to her anymore. Tonight was the first night I've spoken with her since exchanging a few words during graduation.
MikeyC
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Yeah, that all sounds incredibly awkward and unnerving. Sorry you had to go through that. :^ They ended up staying here a little over an hour. It was definitely awkward for a while though. We'd have a small conversation, then it would go quiet. Seemed like none of us knew what to say to each other besides "Hi, how are you?", "How have things been?", and "What are you doing these days?"
It was weird just being around them and hearing about their lives, I definitely felt really uncomfortable. My ex friend is married, about to start a new job (as well as her husband), moving into a new place soon, starting online school in the fall, and already wanting to have kids. The other girl is engaged and living with her fiance and is planning on getting married in March. She doesn't have a job yet and held off school so she could focus on her marriage. All this and they're 19. And here I am, almost 19, never had a boyfriend, haven't had an actual job in almost 3 years, don't have my license so I can't exactly get one too easily, I'm living with my parents, and I'm just going to school. When I'm not in school or doing homework, I'm in front of the computer. Yeah, certainly makes me feel pathetic.
I managed to get one compliment though. At least she said it was a compliment. Didn't sound like it though. Said, "You look like you lost 50 pounds!"
Oh, but at least she took the tv and the stereo that's been sitting in my room for the last two weeks. I was going to just take it to salvation army, but since she was moving in to a new place, I asked her if she wanted them. She was already looking for a tv, so she decided to take it and then took the stereo for the heck of it. No more tripping over that stuff in my room.
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Srijita52
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Sorry to hear that, I'm always here if you ever need me. Hope you feel better soon *hugs*
Kind of like throwing up, shaking with anxiety, and a little shocked.
An ex friend just called me. I didn't know it was her at first, because she was using my friend's phone (came up as her name/number), and it definitely didn't sound like her on the phone. Anyway, I haven't talked to her in months and when we did talk, we basically weren't even friends then since we had a falling out (definitely not a good one). The last I knew she moved to Texas with her husband, but apparently they got back Monday and are moving in the next town over.
So, she just jumps the question on me, "Hey, mind if we - " I had no idea who she was with so I asked, "Who's we?" "R, W, and I come over and visit for a bit? We'll be over in an hour!" I felt I didn't even have a way out of this one, so I caved in. The other person (W) I was never friends with either, I just talked to her occasionally in school because she would always try to start a conversation with me when we were in the library. She loved to spread rumors and was a bit annoying though, so I kept my distance most of the time. (I sound rude saying that. I'm sorry!) So yeah, I feel like I got cornered into doing something I don't want to do.
Why can't I just have the night to myself? :
^I met an ex friend the other day, she used to be my best friend in school but I haven't had any contact with her after having a huge falling out, there was a lot of reason in it of course, mostly my SA and insecurities or her being rude and trying to humiliate me with the bullies, to the point I couldn't take it anymore.... well anyway we met in a mall and exchanged some small talk like 'How have you been?' 'Omg, you look so different!' it was very awkward of course. Then all on a sudden she apologised and said she wants to be friends again. I didn't know how to react but 'yeah, why not?' So now although we never ended up being 'friends' as we were before she occasionally texts me which I reply and so on.
Glad it went okay Pheonixx and please don't call yourself pathetic, we all lead different and unique lifestyles that can't be compared to one-another.
lonely_drummer
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phew!!! Just got home. I was suppose to go out to a suburb today to see my folks but my mom had something come up so I didn't have to see them today, YES!!! SO i decided to go out anyway. I was out all day at my friends house and then we went and hung out with one of his friends, whom I have never met before, I was pretty edgy and nervous but after a bit, I started to feel comfy. Then I just took the bus home which is on the complete opposite side of town and had a crazy drunk talk to me the whole way. He was going off about wanting to start a fight with someone tonight and whatnot, I would say I was quite unsettled, thats for sure but I made it home alright and now Im exhausted. Well it was a good change of pace for today, thats good. Change is good
Shyangel
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You have the most interesting things happen to you, Drummer!! It sounds like you had a fun eventful day. I've had plenty of experience dealing with drunks on the street while walking around Atlanta, trust me. They make for really funny stories later, though.
Srijita52
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^Sounds like you had a very eventful day. Hope you get some rest now
lonely_drummer
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You have the most interesting things happen to you, Drummer!! It sounds like you had a fun eventful day. I've had plenty of experience dealing with drunks on the street while walking around Atlanta, trust me. They make for really funny stories later, though.
I know, something weird always happens to me. Its so weird, like when Im out I try so hard not to confront with anyone. I completely avoid eye contact but yet, these people still seem to be magnetized by me. why is that??
Phoenixx
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^ Glad she apologized and you two are talking again.
I'm debating whether or not I still want to keep in touch with my ex friend. For so long I put up with her attitude and the crap she did to me. Last year was no better and I finally got the courage to cut myself off from her. I don't know why I put up with it for so long. I'm pretty sure it was all because of fear. Afraid that if I did cut myself off, she'd humiliate me more and would never stop. But once I didn't hang out and talk with her as much, I felt so much better. I didn't feel so restricted from myself. I didn't feel like trying to hold back every single action or emotion and just remaining neutral around her because I felt that no matter what I did, there must be some sort of joke or insult coming my way. I enjoyed not being around her for so long.
Invisibleman
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^Married at 19? hmmmm what a shame it will end in trainwreck in about a months time.
But anyway after having a weeks break from school im really loathing going back. I have to go in and talk to a teacher about something when she has a class and im terrified. I only need one course left to graduate high school which is grade 12 english. English used to be my strongest subject but one day my confidence just went and im scared to f**K about it. The teacher,ive had her before. I had her back when I had my confidence and she loved me. Now she expects a lot from me but I dont think my ability is up to par.
But anyway after having a weeks break from school im really loathing going back. I have to go in and talk to a teacher about something when she has a class and im terrified. I only need one course left to graduate high school which is grade 12 english. English used to be my strongest subject but one day my confidence just went and im scared to f**K about it. The teacher,ive had her before. I had her back when I had my confidence and she loved me. Now she expects a lot from me but I dont think my ability is up to par.
MikeyC
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If you don't want to deal with her, don't do it. I've had to cut off a friend for a couple of reasons and I have felt better since. It's not worth it to have to put up with such things if you don't have to.^ Glad she apologized and you two are talking again.
I'm debating whether or not I still want to keep in touch with my ex friend. For so long I put up with her attitude and the crap she did to me. Last year was no better and I finally got the courage to cut myself off from her. I don't know why I put up with it for so long. I'm pretty sure it was all because of fear. Afraid that if I did cut myself off, she'd humiliate me more and would never stop. But once I didn't hang out and talk with her as much, I felt so much better. I didn't feel so restricted from myself. I didn't feel like trying to hold back every single action or emotion and just remaining neutral around her because I felt that no matter what I did, there must be some sort of joke or insult coming my way. I enjoyed not being around her for so long.
Shyangel
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It seems like crazy can sniff out the most vulnerable. Or the most unwilling to deal with it...It's ironic how whenever you don't want something to happen, it happens, but when you do, no such luck. That's life I suppose.
lonely_drummer
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yeah that is sooo true!!!
Srijita52
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^I agree with Mikey, she definitely doesn't seem like a person you should be in touch with.^ Glad she apologized and you two are talking again.
I'm debating whether or not I still want to keep in touch with my ex friend. For so long I put up with her attitude and the crap she did to me. Last year was no better and I finally got the courage to cut myself off from her. I don't know why I put up with it for so long. I'm pretty sure it was all because of fear. Afraid that if I did cut myself off, she'd humiliate me more and would never stop. But once I didn't hang out and talk with her as much, I felt so much better. I didn't feel so restricted from myself. I didn't feel like trying to hold back every single action or emotion and just remaining neutral around her because I felt that no matter what I did, there must be some sort of joke or insult coming my way. I enjoyed not being around her for so long.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Lately, I've been feeling quite depressed. Not entirely sure why, though. ::
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