How are you feeling?

[Silatuyok]

Thanks for the support everyone. The party was unpleasant for me, but more in the way that a paper cut is unpleasant, and less in the way that getting a limb cut off is unpleasant. ::
Even though I dressed up somewhat, I was under the impression that this was a rather casual affair. Nope, everyone was dressed to the nines. In a sea of black and red, suits and cocktail dresses, I was the only one in green and brown, haha.
At any rate, I'm home and can put it all behind me for another year, so it's all good.

 

[Phoenixx]

While I commend your efforts in studying, it's also important to know when to rest so your mind can truly absorb the material. As for your overthinking problem, maybe you should do something to calm yourself down and just, more or less, shut down your brain and send it into "instinct mode".

^ Oh very rarely does my brain ever calm down. It's actually normal for me to think a lot. I've always been like that. I don't always have trouble keeping up with my thoughts though (unless I'm drawing, then it's hard to keep up with). It's how they linger sometimes that bothers me.

 

[spyr05]

It's Friday night. I'm a college student and I wish I was partying, but I'm not in a situation where people just let me know what they're doing and I've fallen into the habit of just not asking anyone, etc. etc

 

[Phoenixx]

Thanks for the support everyone. The party was unpleasant for me, but more in the way that a paper cut is unpleasant, and less in the way that getting a limb cut off is unpleasant. ::

^ You know, sometimes paper cuts hurt so bad I think getting a limb cut off would hurt less. ::

Even though I dressed up somewhat, I was under the impression that this was a rather casual affair. Nope, everyone was dressed to the nines. In a sea of black and red, suits and cocktail dresses, I was the only one in green and brown, haha.
At any rate, I'm home and can put it all behind me for another year, so it's all good.

^ Green and brown is a nice combination. I wonder why everyone was so dressed up for a Christmas party, especially in black and red?

 

[DeadmanWalking]

Thanks for the support everyone. The party was unpleasant for me, but more in the way that a paper cut is unpleasant, and less in the way that getting a limb cut off is unpleasant. ::
Even though I dressed up somewhat, I was under the impression that this was a rather casual affair. Nope, everyone was dressed to the nines. In a sea of black and red, suits and cocktail dresses, I was the only one in green and brown, haha.
At any rate, I'm home and can put it all behind me for another year, so it's all good.

Dissidia: Final Fantasy OST - Cosmos Victory Fanfare - YouTube
A happy congratulations to you Marie for surviving the party! Will you plan on going to another?

Oh very rarely does my brain ever calm down. It's actually normal for me to think a lot. I've always been like that. I don't always have trouble keeping up with my thoughts though (unless I'm drawing, then it's hard to keep up with). It's how they linger sometimes that bothers me.

Well, instead of having one single thought to spend all of your mindpower on, why don't you think about so much stuff that your mind won't be able to "analyze" it? If you can't stop thinking, why don't you control what you think about and how much you think about it? But, you draw, huh? How good are you?

 

[Silatuyok]

^ You know, sometimes paper cuts hurt so bad I think getting a limb cut off would hurt less. ::


^ Green and brown is a nice combination. I wonder why everyone was so dressed up for a Christmas party, especially in black and red?

You know, I don't know. I guess it was just a really formal thing, and we had no clue. My bf was about to walk in the door in jeans and work boots, then we saw through one of the windows and decided to high-tail it to the closest department store to get him a suitable outfit. That was fine with me, because it shaved a significant amount of time off the amount of time I had to spend there.

I showed up in this dress, with a cardigan and riding boots:

Most of the women there looked more like this:

*shrugs* oh well. I thought I looked cute anyway.

 

[Silatuyok]

A happy congratulations to you Marie for surviving the party! Will you plan on going to another?

lol. Thank you, Deadman. I will likely decide to go again next year, but at least I will be better prepared!

 

[KiaKaha]

I have been helping someone move today and have just spent the last 6 hours around a family of extroverts. I sit there like a complete idiot, not saying anything, feeling obviously uncomfortable, sweating and wanting to escape but unable too. I feel very stupid, very drained and extremely depressed.

I dont think I am ever going to function around people.

:'-(

 

[Phoenixx]

Well, instead of having one single thought to spend all of your mindpower on, why don't you think about so much stuff that your mind won't be able to "analyze" it? If you can't stop thinking, why don't you control what you think about and how much you think about it? But, you draw, huh? How good are you?

^ I really do need to control what I think about and how much time I spend on it. Dwelling does nothing but contribute to anxiety to begin with.

Yeah I draw. Well, I haven't been drawing lately cuz I don't even have my sketchbook here at college (Another thing I didn't take with me because I thought it would be distracting... Like my computer isn't. But I need that!). I wouldn't say I'm the best, but I do know I've always had a talent for it. Ever since I joined here and saw the "Post your artwork" thread, I've been kicking myself for not having any of my art anymore. For the past two years I went through a pretty tough art block (more like an art depression. I had no willpower to even take up anything ever since I finished my last art class sophomore year), and I hated seeing all my work. I felt it was only a reminder of what little I accomplished in that art class and I didn't think I could even do it anymore. I hid them away, only for my cousin to find them when he was helping me move into my new room last year. He loved them so much he asked if he could take them, so I let him.

Thinking back on it, I had such an awesome tiger drawing in that little stash of work. One of my first attempts at realism that turned out pretty well. Why didn't I see how good it was then?

 

[Phoenixx]

You know, I don't know. I guess it was just a really formal thing, and we had no clue. My bf was about to walk in the door in jeans and work boots, then we saw through one of the windows and decided to high-tail it to the closest department store to get him a suitable outfit. That was fine with me, because it shaved a significant amount of time off the amount of time I had to spend there.

I showed up in this dress, with a cardigan and riding boots:

Most of the women there looked more like this:

*shrugs* oh well. I thought I looked cute anyway.

^ Cute dress! I'm sure you did look really nice, even if you weren't wearing a gown or a glamorous dress. Honestly, it's little things like that I find much better than being all glammed up.

 

[DeadmanWalking]

^ I really do need to control what I think about and how much time I spend on it. Dwelling does nothing but contribute to anxiety to begin with.

Yeah I draw. Well, I haven't been drawing lately cuz I don't even have my sketchbook here at college (Another thing I didn't take with me because I thought it would be distracting... Like my computer isn't. But I need that!). I wouldn't say I'm the best, but I do know I've always had a talent for it. Ever since I joined here and saw the "Post your artwork" thread, I've been kicking myself for not having any of my art anymore. For the past two years I went through a pretty tough art block (more like an art depression. I had no willpower to even take up anything ever since I finished my last art class sophomore year), and I hated seeing all my work. I felt it was only a reminder of what little I accomplished in that art class and I didn't think I could even do it anymore. I hid them away, only for my cousin to find them when he was helping me move into my new room last year. He loved them so much he asked if he could take them, so I let him.

Thinking back on it, I had such an awesome tiger drawing in that little stash of work. One of my first attempts at realism that turned out pretty well. Why didn't I see how good it was then?

You and me both! We've got to stop thinking about stuff so much and learn how to let things go. Of course, we probably think about things too much is because there's a lot of unresolved stuff in our life, things that have an incomplete ending or an ending we were unhappy with.

Well, sounds to me like you experienced an "artist's block". People get them, it's no big deal (unless your occupation is an artist, but still). They come and go, but it requires so work on our end to get rid of it as well. Why don't you go out and just observe your surroundings, work on your imaginative skills a bit? You should also invest in getting another sketchbook and enroll yourself into some more art classes. Don't let a talent go to waste, okay? I'd love to see one of your drawings, if you would kindly show me one day.

 

[Phoenixx]

Of course, we probably think about things too much is because there's a lot of unresolved stuff in our life, things that have an incomplete ending or an ending we were unhappy with.

^ I couldn't agree more.

Well, sounds to me like you experienced an "artist's block". People get them, it's no big deal (unless your occupation is an artist, but still). They come and go, but it requires so work on our end to get rid of it as well. Why don't you go out and just observe your surroundings, work on your imaginative skills a bit? You should also invest in getting another sketchbook and enroll yourself into some more art classes. Don't let a talent go to waste, okay? I'd love to see one of your drawings, if you would kindly show me one day.

^ I'd like to try to get back into drawing once I'm on winter break and all my Christmas stuff is out of the way. As for enrolling in art classes, I'm not sure if I could go through it again. Art class is really hard for me, as I can't work while other people are around me. I get paranoid, thinking they're watching my every move, judging every single detail of what I'm trying to work on. That's why I prefer to work alone. I definitely don't want to let my talent go to waste though.

 

[MikeyC]

Thanks for the support everyone. The party was unpleasant for me, but more in the way that a paper cut is unpleasant, and less in the way that getting a limb cut off is unpleasant. ::
Even though I dressed up somewhat, I was under the impression that this was a rather casual affair. Nope, everyone was dressed to the nines. In a sea of black and red, suits and cocktail dresses, I was the only one in green and brown, haha.
At any rate, I'm home and can put it all behind me for another year, so it's all good.

Despite the party being unpleasant, you still decided to go, and that's good enough. And I reckon you'd look cute in that dress, anyway.

I have been helping someone move today and have just spent the last 6 hours around a family of extroverts. I sit there like a complete idiot, not saying anything, feeling obviously uncomfortable, sweating and wanting to escape but unable too. I feel very stupid, very drained and extremely depressed.

I dont think I am ever going to function around people.

:'-(

You spent six hours with some people which is a lot for someone like you. I think that's a pretty commendable effort! While you were uncomfortable and stuff, you were still there and that's good, mate.

 

[Invisibleman]

I actually feel pretty good. Im relaxing,watching cricket with a cup of tea *sinks into chair with blissful sigh*

 

[Silatuyok]

Despite the party being unpleasant, you still decided to go, and that's good enough. And I reckon you'd look cute in that dress, anyway.

Thank you. For me, a successful party is one where I don't end up crying in the bathroom, or sitting by myself feeling miserable, or getting in a fight with my significant other afterward. So it was a very successful party for me, lol.

 

[KiaKaha]

You spent six hours with some people which is a lot for someone like you. I think that's a pretty commendable effort! While you were uncomfortable and stuff, you were still there and that's good, mate.

Thanks. Thank you for the acknowledgement Mikey. I appreciate it.

 

[this_portrait]

Feeling rather happy right now. ^^

 

[YellowBird]

I have been helping someone move today and have just spent the last 6 hours around a family of extroverts. I sit there like a complete idiot, not saying anything, feeling obviously uncomfortable, sweating and wanting to escape but unable too. I feel very stupid, very drained and extremely depressed.

I dont think I am ever going to function around people.

:'-(

you are not an idiot,you are cute
They are dumb plain selfish people,who are oblivious to the fact that someone who is helping their relative,feels uncomfortable in a crowd of strangers,haven't made an effort to make you feel better.

 

[MikeyC]

I actually feel pretty good. Im relaxing,watching cricket with a cup of tea *sinks into chair with blissful sigh*

Mate, there's nothing wrong with relaxing like that. Ahhh.

Thank you. For me, a successful party is one where I don't end up crying in the bathroom, or sitting by myself feeling miserable, or getting in a fight with my significant other afterward. So it was a very successful party for me, lol.

I'm guessing all these things have happened in previous parties? I'm sorry to hear that, but glad to hear this one was a relative success. Must've been the cute dress you were wearing.

Thanks. Thank you for the acknowledgement Mikey. I appreciate it.

You're welcome, mate. Anytime.

Feeling rather happy right now. ^^

Hooray! Why is that?

 

[awkwardamanda]

Frick, I get upset easy.:: I just found a sweater in my hamper with a huge flaw in it, most likely from a cat claw because my cat likes to sleep in my laundry. I dropped to the floor and felt like crying. Only no tears came out. Too sad to cry maybe. I laid down on my bed and started having body spasms. My whole body just spazzes sometimes when I'm depressed or anxious or just irritated by something. I buried my head in my pillow for a while. Eventually I dragged myself down the stairs so I could wash my pants, less the sweater I was intending to wash with it. I had to hang onto the rail pretty good just to get down the stairs cause I would have fallen over. I'm having a hard time sitting up and typing this. My whole body just wants to go limp right now. The dumbest things just make me so damn miserable and depressed. You would think it's just a ruined sweater and only a minor piss-off, but when I look at the bigger picture it is totally depressing. I feel like I'm constantly doing the same few loads of laundry over and over and I never have enough time or energy to catch up on the other loads. Then I just procrastinate and it piles up, along with all the rest of this heaping disaster I'm surrounded by. So in the mean time everything ends up getting destroyed before I can deal with it.::