MrJones
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You are not forgotten, DoA, we were missing you. I hope you feel better soon *hug*
How are you feeling?
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planemo
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MikeyC
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Wow, that's pretty sad. :
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Windnine
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I feel lonely and unwanted.I'm sitting at home on the couch at 19 years old.I don't have a car,my mom has NPD and is abusive,I'm engaged,but I'm so broke I can't afford to move out as a full time college student.I hate complaining,though.I feel as though I'll never be free.Even worse,everybody (even online) ignores me.
MikeyC
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No ignoring here, even though I gotta leave for work in about 2 minutes. You're engaged, so that's something to be proud of! I can understand your other frustrations, but in time they will disappear. I didn't get my license until I was 18, and couldn't drive on my own until I was 19, so don't fret about that.
Your avatar makes me hungry, too.
this_portrait
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I feel rather melancholic right now.
AsTimeBurns
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Wondering what the point to anything is.
I realise a lot of people have it much worse than me, but it doesn't mean the problems with myself/my life are just going to stop bothering me.
Life is going so quickly, and I've done nothing I wanted to. By now I wanted to be in a relationship with someone, be happy. But I'm nearly 24, never had a girlfriend, never even kissed a girl. It's ****ing pathetic, but I don't know how to change. I need to move out of my parents house for a start, but then most of my salary will be gone on rent and food, and I was hoping to save some money up so I could go and travel the world a bit.
Sure I could wait a few years, but I might die tomorrow, I don't want to be sat on my arse at a job, just to make enough pieces of paper to be able to go and try and be happy.
I just don't know any more. Not that I ever really did.
I realise a lot of people have it much worse than me, but it doesn't mean the problems with myself/my life are just going to stop bothering me.
Life is going so quickly, and I've done nothing I wanted to. By now I wanted to be in a relationship with someone, be happy. But I'm nearly 24, never had a girlfriend, never even kissed a girl. It's ****ing pathetic, but I don't know how to change. I need to move out of my parents house for a start, but then most of my salary will be gone on rent and food, and I was hoping to save some money up so I could go and travel the world a bit.
Sure I could wait a few years, but I might die tomorrow, I don't want to be sat on my arse at a job, just to make enough pieces of paper to be able to go and try and be happy.
I just don't know any more. Not that I ever really did.
Graeme1988
Hie yer hence from me heath!
Yeah, I've been feeling that way too, lately.
Invisibleman
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I woke up late like I always do on weekends.Got showered and dressed I dont know why,its not like I would be leaving my room at all today. Its grey and disgusting outside. I feel like such a neerdowell,im sitting on the computer in my room while everybody else my age has a job and is working right now::
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coyote
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Invisibleman
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MikeyC
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I know what you're feeling, mate. I'm 25 and it's a similar story.
Hopefully you can push through this and start living! You want to travel? So do I! Where do you want to visit?
KiaKaha
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I want to engage more with other people. I know this is part of the reason why people find me difficult to be around, or arent really interested in speaking with me. The only trouble is, I have something in my mind that says "Dont open yourself up to much, because deep down you disgust people and there are far better people to associate with" so I dont bother... but then why would they bother with me? What if I try...and I just get rejected? Its a cycle of misery that I am continuously trapped in. I dont feel worthwhile. Meh, going for a bike ride..alone.
polishgirl
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I don't know, bad. I tried explaining everything that is going on in mind to my mother today who seems to listen to me from time to time. But I just couldn't. But I will give it another try here.
So today I had a real attach of fury. Literally. I would just scream and stomp with my feet, hit some random objects. I was just so fed up with myself, with everything I'm doing that always seems to be not the way everybody wants it to be. I always make a fool of myself, there are so many people more interesting than me, more worthy of attention and it is killing me. Especially, because even a year ago I was SUCH an open person. And I closed myself, slowly. Everything got out of control. yeah, that is it, I have no control over anything in my life anymore, I used to know what I was standing on. But now I don't and it makes me feel incomplete. Also, the fact that I'm getting more awkward and more awkward isn't making it better. I hate myself.
Goodnight
So today I had a real attach of fury. Literally. I would just scream and stomp with my feet, hit some random objects. I was just so fed up with myself, with everything I'm doing that always seems to be not the way everybody wants it to be. I always make a fool of myself, there are so many people more interesting than me, more worthy of attention and it is killing me. Especially, because even a year ago I was SUCH an open person. And I closed myself, slowly. Everything got out of control. yeah, that is it, I have no control over anything in my life anymore, I used to know what I was standing on. But now I don't and it makes me feel incomplete. Also, the fact that I'm getting more awkward and more awkward isn't making it better. I hate myself.
Goodnight
Aletheia
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I struggle with this. I fear that if people get to know me, they won't like what they find.
Sometimes I'll tell someone something, and later get so agitated about it I can't sit down. You can't take it back once it's out there.
Aletheia
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I've always felt that I'm standing on shifting sands. You can't build a house on shifting sands, there's no foundation.
It may be because I question everything everything everything so relentlessly.
And I don't know who I am.
MikeyC
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You shouldn't. You've only made a handful of posts at the moment, but I can already tell you have a lot going for you. People get angry and frustrated at times and that is a normal feeling. Hopefully it will pass and you'll be alright again.
WeirdyMcGee
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soooooooooooooooo sick and annoyed.
Little brother has only been home for 2 days and he doesn't lock the door when he goes in and out of the house- comes in and out and tracks snow all over the floors 86 times a day (not exaggerating at all. He's been in and out of the house 40 times since 2 hours ago.)
Brought his 'friends' to the basement to smoke and the heat is on, so the STENCH is coming up through the vents and making my stomach turn.
...I've vomited 3 times and feel it'll happen again very soon but there's nothing else to come up... -__-
aghhhhhhh...
so sick. so paranoid of someone breaking into the house through the UNLOCKED door and murdering me; so I can't sleep.
ALSO - I'm sick of the crappy music they're blasting. I can't even concentrate to try working rather than being sick, anxious, depressed and paranoid.
I feel like ****.
Little brother has only been home for 2 days and he doesn't lock the door when he goes in and out of the house- comes in and out and tracks snow all over the floors 86 times a day (not exaggerating at all. He's been in and out of the house 40 times since 2 hours ago.)
Brought his 'friends' to the basement to smoke and the heat is on, so the STENCH is coming up through the vents and making my stomach turn.
...I've vomited 3 times and feel it'll happen again very soon but there's nothing else to come up... -__-
aghhhhhhh...
so sick. so paranoid of someone breaking into the house through the UNLOCKED door and murdering me; so I can't sleep.
ALSO - I'm sick of the crappy music they're blasting. I can't even concentrate to try working rather than being sick, anxious, depressed and paranoid.
I feel like ****.