How are you feeling?

[Falkor]

anxious, today had a very heavy convo with my therapist and it took all the memories back in my mind, i feel all the pain coming up again and now i mess up everything .. cuz i tell people on the chat and now i feel stupid cuz i don't want to bother anyone with it. I wish i could 'deal' with it. but it's so hard to accept.

 

[Beatrice]

sad
......

Awww, I'm sorry. Me, too :/

 

[planemo]

Soooooooooo horrible. I don't want to live any more, I just can't stand this Seriously, I don't think it's in my head...... there are girls shorter than me with bigger hands/longer fingers. I don't care if it sounds stupid, I feel like mine are hideous compared to theirs. For some reason I had to look completely normal except that part of me - I had to get little stubby fingers I just don't feel like I can live feeling so terrible about a part of me like that. There seems to be no hope. I never fit in and I never will, socially or physically. I want to be done with this world already.

Sorry to hear that i know how hard that can be.:: I have similar problems and insecurities about my looks.


((((((hugs)))))))

 

[DespairSoul]

Goodly-good :]

Thankful thanks

 

[Kiwong]

Soooooooooo horrible. I don't want to live any more, I just can't stand this Seriously, I don't think it's in my head...... there are girls shorter than me with bigger hands/longer fingers. I don't care if it sounds stupid, I feel like mine are hideous compared to theirs. For some reason I had to look completely normal except that part of me - I had to get little stubby fingers I just don't feel like I can live feeling so terrible about a part of me like that. There seems to be no hope. I never fit in and I never will, socially or physically. I want to be done with this world already.

Beatrice, you look great, like a movie star from the classic films. You've got a vibrant personality as well, so don't give up on the world, you have so much to offer it. Your fingers are great too, and they type posts very well.

 

[DespairSoul]

yay great girl Miss DS xo

thank u honey means a lot!

 

[DespairSoul]

Soooooooooo horrible. I don't want to live any more, I just can't stand this Seriously, I don't think it's in my head...... there are girls shorter than me with bigger hands/longer fingers. I don't care if it sounds stupid, I feel like mine are hideous compared to theirs. For some reason I had to look completely normal except that part of me - I had to get little stubby fingers I just don't feel like I can live feeling so terrible about a part of me like that. There seems to be no hope. I never fit in and I never will, socially or physically. I want to be done with this world already.

::::Oh BEA sorry to hear that really i hate if people suffer that way coz i know how hurt it and how awful it is. Honey u look so pretty and i can relate to BDD obsession even if is other part of mine body but i know what u are going trough even if u don't believe i do.. SO hang there coz u are so pretty girl and u don't have to worry logic deep inside u know this well just u have to let positive thought float out. I know u will again find it positiveness and fight with that damnn BDD. Good luck and alot of power i wish to u to do that!People stand here for u a lot and look u are not so long here what u done for kapaboom and now u wanna leave no no stay here with us

 

[Beatrice]

Thank you, DespairSoul, Kiwong, and emu_noodles. It means so much to me. I don't know how to get out of this hole I've created. It's hell. I'll try to stick around though, especially on this site - I love everyone here

 

[DespairSoul]

anxious, today had a very heavy convo with my therapist and it took all the memories back in my mind, i feel all the pain coming up again and now i mess up everything .. cuz i tell people on the chat and now i feel stupid cuz i don't want to bother anyone with it. I wish i could 'deal' with it. but it's so hard to accept.

Sassy sorry to hear it u had bad convo with your psychiatrist U don't mess up everything i'm pretty sure u have yet a lot of chances to make it better! U are strong girl i know u can do it! Time heal the best nothing we can accomplish to fast as we wish. I know how u feel hang there and continue where u stopped i can't say will be easy and promise u will be cured tomorrow but i can tell u good luck to u and hugs!

 

[DespairSoul]

I had today really day what was one of the rare days which was just clear happiness coz of nice experiences with socializing and i feel so nice now=) So i hope i will yet have kind of those days..isn't like i'm cured coz this can't happened so easily and i said already was rare day..so little sharing with u guys coz i think i'm more known here with negative comments about how i feel so now was total opposite.

 

[BlueDays]

I had today really day what was one of the rare days which was just clear happiness coz of nice experiences with socializing and i feel so nice now=) So i hope i will yet have kind of those days..isn't like i'm cured coz this can't happened so easily and i said already was rare day..so little sharing with u guys coz i think i'm more known here with negative comments about how i feel so now was total opposite.

Thats always great to hear when someone has a good experience with socializing. I hope it becomes less rare for you DespairSoul.

 

[Deus_Ex_Lemur]

Thats always great to hear when someone has a good experience with socializing. I hope it becomes less rare for you DespairSoul.

I didnt really have a chance... just too stressed with this project. I was at school all day definitely feel better when here vs. home. Esp sitting in cafeteria and lovely girls walking past. Ughhhh. But last 2 weeks heh better make most of it and any social opportunities that will arise. Tho my OCD returned for some reasonn.

 

[Apotheosis]

Ten minutes ago I was depressed, five minutes ago I was angry, now I have a hamburger and the balance of the world is once again restored.

 

[DarkPhoenix]

Had a bit of a bad day but trying to stay positive.

 

[Tiercel]

Just been feeling like I have no energy at all. Nothing's been different, so I don't know what it could be.

Maybe my thyroid is finally screwin' up. Just like my sister and a few other relatives. Damn you, family genes!

 

[hoddesdon]

^^ Have you been tested for hypothyroidism? That could be the cause of your troubles.

 

[dottie]

AWAKE but i'm not supposed to be until 4 hours later. thanks, "non-drowsy" allergy pills that make me fall asleep at unconventional hours!

 

[dean01]

im feeling better, not hyper or depressed so i must be balanced.

 

[Falkor]

I'm feeling good - although a bit wondering how the meeting will go.
But I think it will be fine, I just take a deep breath and see what happens.
I'm feeling very relaxed today, I find peace in mind today

 

[Falkor]

I had today really day what was one of the rare days which was just clear happiness coz of nice experiences with socializing and i feel so nice now=) So i hope i will yet have kind of those days..isn't like i'm cured coz this can't happened so easily and i said already was rare day..so little sharing with u guys coz i think i'm more known here with negative comments about how i feel so now was total opposite.

Wow Soul, it's so great to see you are making progress, I'm glad you have days like this, it shows that you can beat this, and feeling upbeat is always good!! I know what you must go through and I really hope things will get better, you deserve it, you are such a Lovely Soul Keep it up and hang in there!