Yes, I have felt sometimes like that too.. many times, actually..
Or like I don't deserve money or good things happening to me cause I'm not 'good enough' or such... Or that I don't really deserve to be happy.. Or any good things in life..
Some of them still happened.
And sometimes I actively worked on making things better.. on liking myself despite my shortcomings.. and surprisingly sometimes then other people liked me too.. some even mentioned the word 'love'..
so it can happen, even if you don't think you deserve it at the time..
it's a bit fluctuating with me, actually.. sometimes I'm feeling great and like on top of the world, and then something may disturb the balance again.. (it can be something small, or big, or a bunch of small or bigger things, all mixed up..)
So maybe you can observe yourself, if you always feel like this or just in certain specific circumstances? (Like Fri/Sat night
or such? That's one of the crummier times for most single people.. And even for some non-single!! Or after certain foods or situations or contact with certain people etc?)
Hoping things get better soon... ((hugs))