No, I'm sure they don't deserve to be your friend becuase your too damn cool for them anyway. You'll find the right people to be around eventually. you don't want to be around people that can bring you down anyway. Does more harm than good.
Would you be willing to speak as to why you believe you are awkward and unattractive? You most certainly do not seem so here.
That's true, but how long will it take? It's the unknown that haunts me.
That's what I was thinking, but then if I can enjoy my own pain so much why would I care about the well being of others? I mean, if I do care about the well being of others then isn't this a reason for me to hurt them by sharing my dark burden?
I'm totally different online than I am in person. Online, you couldn't even begin to imagine I had any kind of disorder