Well you seem very convinced about your choices. Personally I wonder
if you really know yourself at all. Treating your anxiety which you say
is your major problem but changing your appearance just to feel a little
better about yourself (which it is, it is feeling better about your self
not feeling happy about your appearance) when in fact you say you seem not to need
it makes me wonder if there is a whole other underlying issue.
I am by no means judging you, I can only be fair (as I always try to be) since
I am here for my issues. However my advice would be to work on your
"inner" image before you decided about the external alternation.
I
seem convinced of my choices? Yes, I am quite convinced.
I don't know myself? So please tell me who I am. What do you think my underlying issue is? How did you not pass judgment on me?
Changing my nose is not going to make my anxiety go away. It's not going to make me feel more competent acedemically, it's not going to cause me to love myself more than I do, it's not going to make me trust people.
It's going to make me happier with my
appearance. It's going to make me prettier (at least I think). I know that many people think it's sooo shallow to want to change one's appearance but I am not hurting anyone, I'm not trying to be the fairest of them all, I'm not trying to steal people's boyfriends and I am not trying to be a threat to people or make them feel bad about themselves. My motives may be vain but they are for myself and they are not malicious.
If I had no choice, I wouldn't feel dejected or otherwise hate myself if I had no choice but to live with what I have naturally.
There are things about myself which satisfy me (not refering to my appearance) even if there are other things that I have to work on. My largest challenges are my anxiety and my low self-confidence.
What makes you think that I have not worked on my inner image? I wouldn't be satisfied or proud of half of the things which I love about myself had I not done so. All the things that are good about me now, I have worked on. Only because I am not perfect does not mean that I have never made an effort.
Do you think I'm just one of the stereotypically shallow people who truly only cares about their appearance? I wish I were. Then I could be satisfied with people telling me how pretty I am. Then I wouldn't have to think twice about how I treat people. Would that not be truly shallow? If all I needed was my looks then they would already have taken me far. That goes for many people on this forum.