What's the Most SP/SA thing you have ever done?

[NothingElseMatters]

hmmmm lots of things cause of sa
The worst i can remember now was when i ran out of food and i couldn't go to the store cause i was too afraid,i couldn't order food because i was afraid of the person coming to my house so i sat in the home for 2 days smoking

 

[kuhtreen]

I don't think I've done anything really extreme....the worst I can think of is letting myself get way too hungry because I was too scared to go into the kitchen while we had a guest over.

 

[iamthenra]

I think the most social phobic thing I have done, is more just general things. Like for instance since I was in elementary school, my routine was just to go to school and come home right away. Assuming I didn't get beat up by some bully on the way home. When I got older the only thing that changed was I didn't get beat up by some immature brat. When I go out now, it is because I need something like groceries or gas for my car. I own acreage, and now I am going up there to maintain it and take care of 1500 tree seedlings. That keeps me "sane" for the time being...

 

[mmmm]

I had a situation where I knew I would blush, so I rubbed chilli powder on my face to give myself a red rash so nobody would notice if I went redder.

Didn't work. And oh, my OWWW

 

[dooby-duck]

I've been trapped on a bus once as well. I was sat by the window and another passenger got on and blocked me in and I didn't have the guts to ask them to let me off. Thankfully she got off at the next stop. I used to hate using buses and often walked miles to avoid them.

I've also been trapped in my room because of visitors downstairs and been trapped downstairs by people at the door.

 

[ajo86]

I've been trapped on a bus once as well. I was sat by the window and another passenger got on and blocked me in and I didn't have the guts to ask them to let me off. Thankfully she got off at the next stop. I used to hate using buses and often walked miles to avoid them.

I've also been trapped in my room because of visitors downstairs and been trapped downstairs by people at the door.

This has happened to me alot ont he bus, when people sit next to me and I need to get off. I've stayed on the bus for several more stops hoping they would get off so I could. It was a horrible situation to be in.

 

[ajo86]

At school during an exam I was terrified to put my hand up and ask for more paper so I used to miss some of the questions out or start to write really small to try and fit it all in.

In year 6 during morning assembly I was bursting for the toilet but was terrified to ask the teacher if I could go so I just sat there and wet myself also on sports day before I started to run I needed the toilet but was scared to ask so I just ran the race and as I was running I could feel wee dripping down my legs, by the end of the race my pants were soacked. The worse thing was I didn't have a change of pants so I had to stay in them for the rest of the day and it was a really hot summers day.

At college I used to stay in the toilet all break and dinner time and I ate in the many times as I was too scared to go into the canteen and eat because everyone would be staring at me nad I would be on my own.

During my last job during my lunch break I used to go and find a bench to sit on and eat my lunch but if other people came I would immediately get up and walk away and then not eat my lunch, I would be starving. I used to hate it if it rainied as I couldn't go and sit on the bench so I just used to walk around in the pouring rain and starve. Then when I used to go back at the office after the dinner hour everone used to stare at me cos I was soacking wet. I was then terrified incase they could hear my stomach rumbling all afternoon.

 

[FOR REAL]

lots of things in the past (when i used to go out!)

like ajo86 mentions above THE BUS ONE. i think that was my first experience of this.

hiding in bathrooms/toilets (and getting more anxious cause people might think your up to something!)

the other one i can think of is being in company absolutely desperate for the bathroom, but not being able to leave the room without thinking they would all be talking about you!


i want my own field, so i can just lie in the middle of it and look at the stars!

 

[worrywort]

I've peeed into bottles before, to avoid having to pass people on the way to the bog.

erm, I've eaten my lunch in toilet cubicles, and I still quite often opt to cycle in the pouring rain rather than accept lifts from people, but I don't think that's my SA talking anymore. I think It's just good sense personally! cycling in the rain is way more fun!

Also, I quite often commit myself to things that are way over my head and end up having to bail out in embarrassing ways. For example, I planned a trip to ireland once, on my own, when I was 17, for a whole weekend, but I barely lasted 12 hours before I was having panic attacks and I booked myself onto the next flight home!

I've also done some really shameful things like when I was 16 I got a fairly lead role in an independent short film, but the night before shooting began, I just lost all my nerve and got my mum to phone the guy and tell him I wasn't coming, which left all the cast and crew totally screwed. It's things like that which are the worst. Bailing from that film is still, to this day, the worst thing I think I've ever done in my life.::

 

[Scrabbl]

Also, I quite often commit myself to things that are way over my head and end up having to bail out in embarrassing ways. For example, I planned a trip to ireland once, on my own, when I was 17, for a whole weekend, but I barely lasted 12 hours before I was having panic attacks and I booked myself onto the next flight home!

I've also done some really shameful things like when I was 16 I got a fairly lead role in an independent short film, but the night before shooting began, I just lost all my nerve and got my mum to phone the guy and tell him I wasn't coming, which left all the cast and crew totally screwed. It's things like that which are the worst. Bailing from that film is still, to this day, the worst thing I think I've ever done in my life.::

Wow that sucks

 

[spider04]

- Afraid to tell the bus driver to stop at the place i need to get off.
- Stay in my room when theres a party at home and when its over and everyones sleeping I go to the kitchen and see whats left for me.
- Can't pee at school.

 

[NothingElseMatters]

- Afraid to tell the bus driver to stop at the place i need to get off.

that reminded me of myself when i used the bus to school::Fortunately i live in the city most of the time now and the busses have stop buttons so you don't even have to talk to the driver

 

[sorrow1]

going on a university trip with people i hadnt bothered getting to know. then having so much anxiety i couldnt speak to any of them for the whole two weeks, then afterwards avoiding these people entilrely and not going to class for the rest of the year. then faling the year and dropping out of uni, getting in 15000 pounds worth of debt and wasting thosands of my parents money for nothing.

 

[Rodney]

Well I have a few :

Going to University and staying in my room and avoiding my roommates and then to boot leaving after 3 months costing my parents around $5,000 for education I didn’t receive


Going to bed at 11pm on my bday, which was on a Saturday and I was living in a dorm room with 3 other people. Ps, they were all in one of their rooms partying with some of their friends.

Going out for wings with people, ordering a pepsi and then getting picked up 30 mins later by my sis leaving everyone at the table to have to pay for my drink, oh yeah I never told anyone why I was leaving either, just got up and left.

Most recent moment was going to a wedding reception for a 2nd cousin and then leaving at 11:00pm, a few ppl said some mean things to me about it while I was leaving, they think cus i’m 18 i’m just suppose to get drunk,party and pick up girls.

Ugggghhhhhhhh!

 

[this_portrait]

I would say that some of the most SA-related things I've done are::

*Lived with a roommate for a whole year, and didn't say much of anything to her.
*Hung out with a friend and talked to her for a long while, and then just stopped talking to/hanging out with her altogether.
*Backed out on party invitations and get-togethers.
*Refused to go through drive-thrus at fast-food places because I didn't want to speak up.
*Avoided the mall on Friday nights.

Just to name a few.

 

[zlench]

I just avoided everyone by hiding away from them each and didn't want to face them.

 

[dream]

Wow, after reading all you're expiercences, i can see now that im not alone
I thought i was the only one hibernating.Staying in doors the whole summer hiding/skipping class in the girls bathroom on one or more occasions
I wish i found out about sad a long time ago:S is this disorder well known of ? I wish someone would of told me about it sooner i always have been a more introverted shy individual although i had more then a few friends in elementry school then i do now,which is fine i guess i would rather have 1 or 2 true friends then a party of fake ones.

 

[Lorraine Manca]

When I lived in a dorm with a room mate for the first time, I was mortified. The room was tiny and she smelled bad. I felt so awkward being in the room with her. Instead I took up residence in the third floor of the library. It was the floor where all of the books were written in foreign languages, so no one ever went up there. When the library closed at midnight, Id go and sleep in the basement of the dormitory. I memorized my room mates schedule so I knew when the room would be empty and when i could use it. Pretty pathetic, huh?

 

[Quiet Angel]

Here are a few that I remember:

*I spent 2-3 hours working on my appearance; makeup & such. Infact,
I've changed into 10-12 different outfits & eventually, I decided to stay home.
I cried while feeling very ashamed of myself.

*I pretended to sleep throughout the 3 hour car drive in my boyfriend's car.
I've been dating him for several years & I'm still afraid to interact w/ his family,
so it was a way of temperary escape.

*Because I was always afraid to eat in High School, I would sit in an empty classroom each & everyday, and just read. I was very thin back then.

 

[Blue Teardrops]

I've had wahahay too many sp moments, but one that sticks out in my head is this: some boy in class asked me a question in class during class discussion and I turned red, red. And then a girl said awe you embarrassed her did he embarrass you? wtf. thanks!

seeing that there's a lot of roommate talk in here, i guess another one would be when i moved in with my roommates for the first time. a total disaster.