Being understanding is a good trait I think but it can be anoyying when it is no returned.For me Im easily irrirated and frustrated.Its some thing I have been working on for quite a while with mixed results.Still trying though
I'll say letting all the negative shit around me overwhelm the constructive dreams I have. I always give the inconsequential people in my life too much of my energy.
I don't get along with people. I'm blunt, and at times I make people feel awkward. I tend to stay in an anti-social mode, just to keep my life peaceful. I don't make friends, I don't have any friends.
I'm a horrible friend, especially when I'm working full time. As long as I know that no one is dying, or need me to get them out of jail, I don't have time for them: I need all my time alone to recharge. I don't even answer my phone (which sometimes results in my closest friends texting me "I'm having a stroke" or "I'm in jail, answer your phone"). If I'm unemployed though, now I have time for my closest friends (not so much for the other ones, too much effort), and I become one more push over, because I hate fighting and arguing. So in short, I'm probably what we could call self centered.
God, too many to choose from! I'm in a three way tie between cowardice, ego and a lack of social confidence. Although procrastination and over-analysing are probably not far behind. I think social confidence and cowardice are kind of connected though. So maybe I could be kind and blame my cowardice on my social difficulties, and presume I'd be braver, were I wired different socially. Though it could easily be the other way around. Maybe I never reached the social heights of others because I wasn't as brave as them.
But then there's also my ego, which might seem like a strange thing to have, when I have such little esteem in so many area's of my life, namely relationally. But I think it's probably connected aswell, precisely because I have such low self esteem in certain area's, I think I can get overly confident and smug whenever there's an area where I feel a glimmer of expertise and I can easily switch into "know-it-all" mode. I'm like the equivalent of the guy who drives a Ferrari cause he's got a tiny c**k! Trying to over compensate in one area for my insecurities and failings in another.
But perhaps I wouldn't feel the need to over compensate, if I had the balls to face my problems to begin with, which again, brings me back to cowardice. So if I had to pick one, I think it's gonna have to be that. One thing's for sure, cowardice is the charge that stings the deepest when I reflect upon it, so that's probably a clue that it's my worst quality.
I'm a horrible friend, especially when I'm working full time. As long as I know that no one is dying, or need me to get them out of jail, I don't have time for them: I need all my time alone to recharge. I don't even answer my phone (which sometimes results in my closest friends texting me "I'm having a stroke" or "I'm in jail, answer your phone"). If I'm unemployed though, now I have time for my closest friends (not so much for the other ones, too much effort), and I become one more push over, because I hate fighting and arguing. So in short, I'm probably what we could call self centered.
Oh God, yea I forgot about that. Sometimes I think I might be scarily self centered too! I can be really cold and uncompassionate about the plight of others sometimes aswell. God it's all coming out now!
Ok. This is a good question and I keep wanting to answer it properly.
My over-thinking has to be one of my worst qualities because it has made me question everything and not believe anything. It's hard for me to get motivated to do things because I always have to know everything first. I am getting better with time I think because life teaches you you cannot control anything really and you have to just keep moving even if you don't know where you will end up!
I think my worst quality is being lazy. In many area's of life. At work, at home, in relationships with other people, etc. I think it might have been a contributing factor to having social anxiety and a reason why it took me a long time to get over it. I have a rather lazy than tired mentality.
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