Right, so a few weeks ago, I was experiencing a particularly baneful episode of anxiety/paranoia and I ill-advisedly ended up taking most of my frustrations out on a close friend of mine. I apologized to her over SMS (I was going to do it in person earlier in the day, but she was always surrounded by people, and I don't want everyone knowing about our private business), but she never replied. So I had to confront her in person about it the next day - I basically told her that what I'd done was a dick move, and that I genuinely was sorry for how I acted. She said that she accepted my apology and that we were cool now, but she hadn't said a word to me for the next week or so, until I had to convince her again that I truly cared for her and that she really was important to me. From then, we made it a point to continue our association as it was before, and how it always should have been.
Now here's the tricky part. Things are back to normal, sure, but I can't help but feel like I have been pushed aside either way. She never really seems to talk to me unless she has to now, and I subsequently feel awkward about trying to put the required effort in to salvage our friendship. Now I know some of you will say "if you really care about her, you'll keep trying to make things better", but frankly it doesn't mean s**t if it's all one-sided. I hate to admit it, but I feel like what was once a glorious and prospering friendship has devolved into a mere friendship of convenience.
So what should I do? Should I kill the friendship, or still keep faith in it?
Now here's the tricky part. Things are back to normal, sure, but I can't help but feel like I have been pushed aside either way. She never really seems to talk to me unless she has to now, and I subsequently feel awkward about trying to put the required effort in to salvage our friendship. Now I know some of you will say "if you really care about her, you'll keep trying to make things better", but frankly it doesn't mean s**t if it's all one-sided. I hate to admit it, but I feel like what was once a glorious and prospering friendship has devolved into a mere friendship of convenience.
So what should I do? Should I kill the friendship, or still keep faith in it?