Why are you depressed at the moment?

[ILovePocky]

Because I'm at the age where I should be deciding what I want to do with my life, become more independant, and start off on my own. But I have no goals or motivation and I can't see much of a future for myself. I'm a burden to my family. I don't have any real friends. I hate feeling so alone and like such a disappointment.

 

[Graeme1988]

Because I'm at the age where I should be deciding what I want to do with my life, become more independant, and start off on my own. But I have no goals or motivation and I can't see much of a future for myself. I'm a burden to my family. I don't have any real friends. I hate feeling so alone and like such a disappointment.

I've been feeling this way as well, lately. Also, on top of that, I've been feeling very isolated because of recent family problems.

 

[Minty]

Intense loneliness. It's becoming more painful than anything I have ever known.

 

[planemo]

yeah i suppose it's loneliness too. pity every person i end up interacting with (which is few anyway) seems to hate me or hopes for the worst for me. ::

 

[Shygirl2011]

Because my social life is non-existent

 

[EdgeCrusher]

i am starting to feel depressed because with each passing day i feel more and more like there is no place for me in this world. that there is no companion for me in this world.

 

[Deus_Ex_Lemur]

I can add many of these ^^

But I got so much thats gonna happen starting next Thursday - a lot to prepare for that this week - Ive been out of things for a while (socially, working with ppl, filming things) ... just - have a lot of doubts. So that depresses.

Yeah I am a film student who doesnt film until this semester... Im too afraid to even hold an audition. Plus no time. BAH what depresses me really - is me not bucking up and putting my all into this...

 

[bluemoonrising]

I am feeling low because I feel depressed sometimes and don't have anyone to talk to about it. Friends are in different places, I don't want to bring them down. I feel like some of the time I am preventing myself from doing things I need to or want to. I called the Samaritans the other night, which also has left me feeling sad. Sad that I actually did that. Sad that it didn't help.

 

[superfluouslyme]

I want a job and I need a job. But I am absolutely terrified to get a job.

 

[Deus_Ex_Lemur]

I want a job and I need a job. But I am absolutely terrified to get a job.

I'll be there after I grad. Overwhelmed with anxiety and terror really. I guess this is more, why am I pulling my hair out and shaking back and forth with fear in the fetal position in the corner at the moment than depressed...

I need the godfather to shake and slap me and tell me to act like a man!

 

[Beatrice]

No friends right now, always anxious, recently lost my virginity (to someone I soon after realized I didn't even love. He wasn't even my TYPE.... ughhh :'(

I don't see much point in living but I don't want to hurt my family or end up paralyzed or something from a failed attempt....

 

[okcancel]

I don't see much point in living but I don't want to hurt my family or end up paralyzed or something from a failed attempt....

hang in there.

 

[killertubbie]

I'm jobless, I don't have a girlfriend, I've been struggling accepting myself as a person and still do, I have inferiority complex on so many parts of my life. Sometime outside, close-minded strangers are glaring at me without any apparent reasons.

I'm feeling despised by some of my family's members due to the fact that success didn't come right into my life and are looking down on me. I can tell by their behaviors and how uncomfortable they are for just being around me.
I thought families are about people who stand by you when things goes wrong and I realize that I can only be appreciated by meeting their expectations. You're not loved or treated equally when the cousins, brothers or sisters are all entrepreneurs, doctors or lawyers. For a few years now, they're probably wondering why I'm missing all these gatherings between families...

Anyways, I don't see myself as the worst victim in this case and I think everyone's issues in this thread is as serious as mine. I just hope you guys are not too depressed reading me and sorry if you are, that's not my intention. I still have hopes about my life though...

 

[Duraldo]

Hmm....lets see.

I think it's somewhere between outliving 90% of my highchool "friends" before age 23 (seriously, I only know one left that is alive, found out last week another died).

Then there's the girl I like that's completely screwing with my feelings and head for her own personal advantage.

Oh then there's this other girl that's amazing and perfect to me but has a boyfriend, and she confuses the hell out of me.

I havnt made a single dollar from my job in the last 2 weeks (I work on commission)

Mostly it's the two girls that are driving me nuts. :|

 

[EscapeArtist]

I want to remember what love feels like. What it feels like TO love and what it feels like TO BE loved... And I don't mean "I love you, I love you too" But rather not having to say it, feeling it, without defenses up.. and including human touch.. hugs, nudges on the shoulder. What would this feel like.... (I'm not talking about lovey dove relationships just family and friends.)

 

[EscapeArtist]

No friends right now, always anxious, recently lost my virginity (to someone I soon after realized I didn't even love. He wasn't even my TYPE.... ughhh :'(

I don't see much point in living but I don't want to hurt my family or end up paralyzed or something from a failed attempt....

Oh gosh *Hugs* I'm so so sorry Beatrice. This is just a dip in the long road of life... Things come and go and this feeling will pass... There is no way else to learn or know what you do except by living through what you have. You are deserving of friends and love and WILL one day have it with people you love and love you back. Just hold on for now

 

[Beatrice]

Thanks, okcancel and EscapeArtist.... I appreciate it. I hope I can get to know you guys (girls? lol) better around here... and others as well. At least I'll feel like I have SOMEWHERE... :/

 

[Nanita]

Being down... it comes and goes, I can feel uplifted or happy some days, or some hours of a day. But the depressed mood comes back.

Let´s see....

I feel so much emptimess & loneliness.

I rarely do things that I like doing, I just can´t make it happen, it involves too much effort and having to be in contact with people. (why are people involved with everything everywhere???)

My boyfriend through 2 years, is now living in another country, and I think we have to split, because we have issues and distance.

I don´t have an education, I can´t get an education.. because of my Social Anxiety and all.

I don´t have a job.

After years of living different places and countries, I now live in my hometown which is boring, and would rather be living surrounded by nature, I just haven´t been able to make it happen.

I´m tired of life. I feel like it´s time for me to leave this world. But still alive and breathing. I have no idea why.

 

[Lostinthemusic]

I skipped classes for the second time in a row today.

I'm can't really tell if my meds have kicked in or not. If its even worth it to be on them.

I can no longer pass the house I'm staying in now on to my friend from the dorms last year because my other roommates have now decided to stay. This is after I pretty much promised it away, that was a sh***y call to have to make.

There is something in my lower left abdomen that has been twitching for two days and I don't know if its bad or not. I don't know who to talk to about it or if I should go to the doctor.

I feel lazy. Really lazy. But only because of sleeping in. I also have trouble getting to sleep. Last night I ended up trying to meditate instead of sleep because I couldn't tell if I was having trouble breathing or if that twitch is giving me some kind of negative placebo effect.

I just feel like I don't know myself, I don't know what to do about anything even though the solution to everything feels so simple. In a nutshell, don't be a flake and realize my responsibilities. So why is it SO F***ING HARD.

The only way I know how to relieve built up emotions is through drumming. But I have to walk a block and a half to get to where my set is, and I can never tell if the guys there mind me playing or not. It always seems tense there and I don't know why or how to deal with it.

I see people on campus I know and don't say hi because I wait for them to but they don't and then its awkward and it feels like they think I'm an ass. I just want to be friends with everyone, but there is no real way to do that as far as I can tell.

I want people to seem exited when they see me, not indifferent and possibly hiding the fact that they don't want to see me at all.

Well...off to try and force myself to the store. Oh, haven't been eating very well or exercising either.

Should Prozac be taken with poor diet/exercise? I don't really know what is safe with meds and sometimes my nerves get the best of me and I think I'm going to die somehow, but I'm afraid to tell the doctor. I never twitched before prozac, but never did the first couple weeks of being on it either.

I feel like I should join the army for the discipline, but I don't want to get shot either.

 

[Graeme1988]

Well, let's see...

The realization that things aren't going to get any better in terms of my physical disability. My cerebal palsy has been getting worse these past 10 years.

I'm struggling to accept myself as I am.

I feel that my father thinks I'm a disappointment for dropping out of school when I was 17.

I feel I've lost my passion for things I once loved to do.

23 years old and I still don't have a girlfriend. I don't know why that's an issue - maybe it's the fact I feel I'm missing out?

My life seems empty and completely pointless.