Zombie.... I'm a freaking zombie. Where is happiness? You make it? Hmm. Guess I don't have the proper materials then.
Why are you depressed at the moment?
#202
phocas said: ↑Its 19+ anyway....:😛:
We're hoping to get tickets to The Cure who are playing two concerts at the end of this month, its going to be hugely popular so getting tickets online will be hard.
Where are the Cure playing Phocas ? I wouldn't mind to see them.
#203
Made a friend/acquaintance for the first time in almost ever, but i'm just not ready to exist in the eyes of another, or maybe I'm just being picky. I'm seriously contemplating just pulling away from it but will I regret it like I do with all the other things I've done that with? There's no way of telling but it doesn't feel like a right match, should all friendships feel as close in understanding as I expect??
Just needed a place to ramble. I hope this is an okay one !
Just needed a place to ramble. I hope this is an okay one !
I broke up with a guy... My grades this semester suck. I hate being here....
#205
phocas said: ↑We're hoping to get tickets to The Cure who are playing two concerts at the end of this month, its going to be hugely popular so getting tickets online will be hard.
I used to have a weird crush on Robert Smith when I was a teenager:😛:
It's annoying living in a regional area, I would have to travel so far to get to the nearest city where the big names play.:🙁:
#206
BlueDays said: ↑I used to have a weird crush on Robert Smith when I was a teenager:😛:
It's annoying living in a regional area, I would have to travel so far to get to the nearest city where the big names play.:🙁:
I'd gladly jump on a plane to see the Cure play. I have some frequnet flyers points up.
#207
Kiwong said: ↑I'd gladly jump on a plane to see the Cure play. I have some frequnet flyers points up.
I've never been on a plane before! 😮
I would be obsessively worrying about being sick! lol:😮: I would have to travel on a bus, which takes so long.:🙁:
#208
BlueDays said: ↑I've never been on a plane before! 😮
I would be obsessivly worrying about being sick! lol:😮: I would have to travel on a bus, which takes so long.:🙁:
Yikes a bus! I travelled on a Greyhound to Sydney once. Never again. I think I'm over my fear of flying now.
#209
There are some upcoming events around my city I wanna go to but have no one to go with.
And after graduation I want to do something fun for a month like traveling, but again I have no one to do that with. I hate my life.
And after graduation I want to do something fun for a month like traveling, but again I have no one to do that with. I hate my life.
#210
phocas said: ↑Dont tell everyone, tickets are limited...
Sydney Opera House - Vivid Live 2011 - THE CURE "REFLECTIONS"
My seals are lipped. Thanks.
I'm so terribly depressed right now. Thought I'd made some progress in finally finding somebody special, on a new online dating site that I tried.
Anyway, so it was a rather pretty local girl, who first contacted me. Started chatting on the site, swapped phone numbers, started doing a bit of texting. Thought it might have been going somewhere, then she just stopped responding to messages. Had her on facebook, and out of the blue, she deleted me. Still don't know what went wrong there.
So I'd been chatting up other girls on the same dating site, only for it all to lead nowhere. For each of them to say the same thing, "you're a really nice guy, but we just want to be friends with you."
Great, that's exactly the same bull**** excuse that I was given back in highschool. They don't really want to be friends, they just want to say this much overused line, so they feel better about themselves, that they think they're doing me some huge favour. If you don't want to talk to me, fine. Just tell me honestly, though.
Now I've since worked out what my problem is. I'm friendzone only material. I'm the pathetic, Nice Guy loser. The one that women feel sorry for, and try to console by saying "Don't worry you'll find somebody one day," but I'm the one guy that women do not want.
**** this, I really feel like killing myself.
Anyway, so it was a rather pretty local girl, who first contacted me. Started chatting on the site, swapped phone numbers, started doing a bit of texting. Thought it might have been going somewhere, then she just stopped responding to messages. Had her on facebook, and out of the blue, she deleted me. Still don't know what went wrong there.
So I'd been chatting up other girls on the same dating site, only for it all to lead nowhere. For each of them to say the same thing, "you're a really nice guy, but we just want to be friends with you."
Great, that's exactly the same bull**** excuse that I was given back in highschool. They don't really want to be friends, they just want to say this much overused line, so they feel better about themselves, that they think they're doing me some huge favour. If you don't want to talk to me, fine. Just tell me honestly, though.
Now I've since worked out what my problem is. I'm friendzone only material. I'm the pathetic, Nice Guy loser. The one that women feel sorry for, and try to console by saying "Don't worry you'll find somebody one day," but I'm the one guy that women do not want.
**** this, I really feel like killing myself.
#212
circles.... im depressed at the thought my depressions getting worse and that i could lose my mind completely and do something stupid to myself without even being aware ive done it.
I am not depressed at the moment, because I just tune out everything that makes me depress, I would cross the bridge when I come to it.
#214
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~lunaticbinge said: ↑Thinking about death too damn much. I know it's bad to constantly think about it, but i can't even help it. If I knew what waited for me on the other side, life would be so much easier. It drives me nuts yet fascinates me to no end. Speculation running rampant. Typical me.
I couldn't wait to retire and have complete independence but that has now turned into 'isolation'... for various reasons... my foster-son of twenty years had become an alcoholic (partly due to being molested as a young boy); so sadly for my own sanity had to part ways... miss my loving foster-grandson of 8yrs very much... need urgent dental work done - decline any socialising - after a long wait am finally getting as assessment !!
Am sleeping twelve odd hours a day lately... sleeping all day; up all night !
Have lost motivation to do anything much lately... tomorrow is the same as the day before and will be the same today... feeling lonely.
Thought about getting someone to board with me but find that I just cannot completely trust a stranger. Have a loving sister and nieces but don't want to worry them... they have their own lives to contend with.
Feel like I have achieved everything in life that I wanted to and I'm sure that if someone gave me a pill and said 'take this and you will never wake up'...
I would seriously consider it - worry though, of the pain it would cause to loved ones! "Between a rock and a hard place !!!" 🙂
#215
I have alot of college work and thats bringing me down at the moment, but not depressed.
#216
Getting rest but it not rejuvenating me like it should be doing.
And because my mind keeps finding ways for my ex to pop up into it. -Taps head- Get out of there.
And because my mind keeps finding ways for my ex to pop up into it. -Taps head- Get out of there.
#217
Well, I have turned back into a pumpkin. I am not even sure which one is me.
the lack of any real connection to someone
#219
because i have no friends, never did and never will
depressed about this too... but that i can fix.
latte said: ↑i'm not skinny enough.
depressed about this too... but that i can fix.
#220
latte said: ↑mind sharing how? i'm fighting with myself for almost 10 years 🙁
just eat less calories than you burn in a day, honestly thats all there is to it