Razzlecherry
Banned
This sums it up pretty well.
Although the main one is simple, I'm a purpose driven person. If I could come up with a decisive purpose / goal for having a specific conversation, i'm not anxious. But general conversation, I don't understand the human mind to understand the purpose of it. I understand it eliminates loneliness, but while speaking, what is the purpose of trading words and speaking thoughts? It's not concrete..
That and I am afraid of attention. Being a middle child I am not used to it, it's ****ing scary as ****, ****.. Oh, wait, I can add to that too, I don't understand social graces and boundaries, what to talk about and what not to. My goal is authenticity, so naturally I would talk about some serious **** to strangers, but have to stop myself. Wow, there's a lot.
Dafudge? Have you been reading my diary? Haha, no I'm kidding. I don't have a diary. That must mean you're a mind reader. GET OUT OF MY HEAD!