Somedays when I'm feeling really hard on myself I feel like there's nothing to live for. Not suicidal wise but that if I were to just sit and do nothing it really wouldn't matter. But when this mood lifts and life gives you something to look forward to you realize that you have just about everything to live for. I deserve to be hopeful for my future, to live for the children I might have, the man I'll marry one day and the future I would like to make for myself one day. I have to remind myself when I don't feel like I want to go through one more day as me that I'm a good person who deserves everything just like everyone else and one day I'll have it.
What are you living for?
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FountainandFairfax
in a VAN down by the RIVER
Because I'm not going to be the guy who stayed all night, only to leave the party 5 minutes before things got wild.
Pookah
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I agree with above. I basically accumulate things I don't want to miss about the future. Science, space exploration, movies, books and games.
Enialis227
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Gilic
New member
What keeps me going is motivation even though the future might look dark and hopeless I still want to live another day to try it again. I've had so many ups and downs in my life suffered many heartbreaks most of them was not my fault,I always got hurt in my life but I'm still not giving up. I write song lyrics and compose instrumentals that is one thing that keeps me going cause I can reach out to other people thats going through what I am going through. I love basketball its a fun sport I release all the stress and worrying when I'm playing and another thing that I'm living for is the basic promises that God want us to have.
Noca
Banned
I really dont know either. I would say probably my job because I get to help other people. I think helping people gives me some sort of satisfaction in my life. I would also say my family, because I love them a lot, and I know that they love me alot. The world does scare me though. Ive had days where I have felt completely hopeless, and did not get out of bed. I actually called off work yesterday, because I felt so lowsy, and worthless. I have never really been good when it comes to girls, and almost have come to the point where i think that no women like me at all. I do try and keep a positive mindset, and try to think of all of the good things and qualities about myself, even though some days it is hard to.
theslowesthand
Banned
I have a pretty rock-solid daily routine, which keeps me constantly occupied, and i always have many projects on the go at any one time (mainly programming). So i always feel "needed" as such, and always have a sense of purpose, and very seldom do i feel "at a loose end"
So basically i just keep very busy all the time, and live mainly for the small pleasures/comforts in the moment. I don't think of the past, or the future, just the right-now.
Edit: Thinking about it, i actually use my constant busy-ness, binging on comfort food, sometime binging on alcohol, nervous habits, my obsessional programming, etc, as ways to prevent me from "feeling" (as when i "stop", i tend to feel somewhat "bored" (usu apprehensive/nervous/lonely)). But if i "keep going" constantly, from the moment i arise to the moment i go to sleep, then i can contually be evading my problematic feelings? So, in that case, really i am "numbing-out" everything & just escaping into my own private little world .. but for now i seem to be content with this state of affairs (probably because it's WAY WAY better than being depressed/etc; ie i'm content with just evading my "major sh*t"). Maybe i should be trying to aim a little higher with my life, now that i'm out of the "poo"?
Edit2: I am constantly blotting-out my negative subconscious thoughts, with mental/sensory positives (is a "task" (requires constant vigilance/activity), but i'm managing pretty well i think)
And I feel quite content with my present life, in spite of my problems (probably cause my mind is off my problems for most of the time). So for example, the fact that i've probably "wasted my whole life away" to date doesn't bother me
But of course i am lucky enough to have my depression, mood swings, alcoholism, anxiety, panic attacks, anger, irritabilty, paranoia, etc, etc under control, or at least quite manageable. I can recall that in "those bad old days" i lived for quite different things than i do today (you know - scared to botch-up suicide attempt, not wanting to put family through pain of my loss, leaving projects unfinished, haven't had a chance to revenge myself at world, etc, etc)
So i suppose, what a person is "living for" might depend on "where they're currently at" in life (??). And just maybe the two might be interdependent upon each other??? This I find to be a very interesting concept!! I'll have to ponder on it some more...
So basically i just keep very busy all the time, and live mainly for the small pleasures/comforts in the moment. I don't think of the past, or the future, just the right-now.
Edit: Thinking about it, i actually use my constant busy-ness, binging on comfort food, sometime binging on alcohol, nervous habits, my obsessional programming, etc, as ways to prevent me from "feeling" (as when i "stop", i tend to feel somewhat "bored" (usu apprehensive/nervous/lonely)). But if i "keep going" constantly, from the moment i arise to the moment i go to sleep, then i can contually be evading my problematic feelings? So, in that case, really i am "numbing-out" everything & just escaping into my own private little world .. but for now i seem to be content with this state of affairs (probably because it's WAY WAY better than being depressed/etc; ie i'm content with just evading my "major sh*t"). Maybe i should be trying to aim a little higher with my life, now that i'm out of the "poo"?
Edit2: I am constantly blotting-out my negative subconscious thoughts, with mental/sensory positives (is a "task" (requires constant vigilance/activity), but i'm managing pretty well i think)
And I feel quite content with my present life, in spite of my problems (probably cause my mind is off my problems for most of the time). So for example, the fact that i've probably "wasted my whole life away" to date doesn't bother me
But of course i am lucky enough to have my depression, mood swings, alcoholism, anxiety, panic attacks, anger, irritabilty, paranoia, etc, etc under control, or at least quite manageable. I can recall that in "those bad old days" i lived for quite different things than i do today (you know - scared to botch-up suicide attempt, not wanting to put family through pain of my loss, leaving projects unfinished, haven't had a chance to revenge myself at world, etc, etc)
So i suppose, what a person is "living for" might depend on "where they're currently at" in life (??). And just maybe the two might be interdependent upon each other??? This I find to be a very interesting concept!! I'll have to ponder on it some more...
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combat
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I do the same thing with work. The busier the workday is, the better I tend to feel about everything because I can completely focus on the task at hand rather than think about things that are bothering me.
this_portrait
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I live because I have been presented with many great potential opportunities that I can easily attain if I work hard enough to attain them. I live to make something of myself and not let my family down by being yet another loser relative with no goals, no talent, and no job. I also live to impress others; I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing. I guess it can go both ways.
Honda
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im reaching an extent that im starting to favor happiness over success in life.
Id rather fail in my career and not have savings for the future and not spend on luxuries for the sake of being happy.. Even though i was raised to live a good quality life and my parents worked hard for giving me a good life and put high hopes in me, which makes me think twice... Yet i think a matter of time for societies to change and people will start killing all those silly barries we have today.. Alot of barriers in the past already died nowadays...
Id rather fail in my career and not have savings for the future and not spend on luxuries for the sake of being happy.. Even though i was raised to live a good quality life and my parents worked hard for giving me a good life and put high hopes in me, which makes me think twice... Yet i think a matter of time for societies to change and people will start killing all those silly barries we have today.. Alot of barriers in the past already died nowadays...
ThePunisher
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I live for revenge, revenge on bullies. I hate them with all my heart. I hate how they make people suffer and take pleasure out of it. I know there are some that don't realise it. But these bullies need to be punish to realise what they're doing is wrong and so they know what it feels like, and then maybe they'll learn. I myself was once a bully when I was very young like around 8 and that's how I learnt it was wrong.
I also live to help other people who are going through the same experiences that I have and give them hope and the will to carry on with life.
I also live to help other people who are going through the same experiences that I have and give them hope and the will to carry on with life.
ThePunisher
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It's the way I choose to live my life cause I got something worth fighting for. I have decided this a long time ago and have put months of thought into that decision.
Unless you have been bullied badly like me, treated unfairly and not receiving help when you cry out for it, then you don't know what it's like and understand why I feel this way.