its 13 weeks stuck in a community centre i was meant to do it before but i went on sick benefits to dodge it im worry tho theyll think im weird and withdrawn anyway im planning on getting drunk tonight because i need to wind down thats if i even manage you know with me i say things and when it comes to the time i dont do them
Don't get drunk unless you really plan to 'screw up' then.. If there's something future maybe-employers really hate, is drunk and scruffy people.. It could also give you bad rep if you show up unkempt and such.
If you have any plans to ever get any sort of work through them, at least appear sort of average/normal-looking..
Can you relax with other activities, dunno go running or read a book or watch a film? Or get a punching sack and box? Go to the gym? Or get a guitar and bang on it and sing angry country songs?
So what, who cares what they'll think? For many 'withdrawn' people, others think they're 'calm' or 'peaceful' (!)
Or they may just think you're a little bit nervous, which is normal and to be expected..
And even if they think you're weird, they can still maybe be helpful.. There are jobs and work and awesome careers for 'weird' people too.. And some of the coolest people are 'weird'!!
I know it sucks, hang in there!!