The Confession Booth

[*Amy*]

Okay, so a confession of mine from veeeery long ago, and which will make you realise that I am not as much of an angel as I might look:

When I was 7, my sister (she was 4) was preparing a theatre play with her classroom. It was about a very typical Catalan tale in my country, about a female rat who had many suitors (different animals), and bla bla bla (I'm not gonna tell the whole story here). So my sister was one of the last in the list, and she had to play the role of the bull. She wanted to be the female rat, but had to play as a bull, and was very angry at the teacher. She told me about that, and I told her to kill the teacher so that I would take her place and change roles. I even gave her a knife and she put it in her bag, but she never did anything... Now I just think it's funny when I remember about it.


And another confession, this one much more recent:

I lied to a group of Christians and told them I was one of them because I was lonely and desperate to get some friends.

 

[DeadmanWalking]

To all females, this confession goes out to you and I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive me for what I am about to say. As much as I flirt with females (at least on here) and, overall, have fun with them, there exists a part of me that has bitter feelings towards them. A part of me blames them for being left alone and unloved, but I know that's not true. I'm the reason that I'm alone and unloved. I want to change and I will change; I'm burying those feelings and making that other self realize that this situation is my fault. So, to end this, I would like to say, ladies, even though a part of me may hold not nice feelings towards you, I will always love you as much as I love anyone else. Again, I'm so sorry for being stupid and I hope that you won't hold anything against me.

I'd also like to say that I'm a complete hypocrite. I push others to do things that I cannot/will not do. I give them relationship advice, tell them to go after their crush, and guide them through the darkness of their depression. Whereas, someone like me would have given up quite easily or have been too scared to do what I would have advised; I don't have the right to tell people to do things that I won't do. I'm ready for my retribution; everyone, tear into me like I deserve.

 

[YellowBird]

"I'm the most terrific liar you ever saw in your life. It's awful. If I'm on my way to the store to buy a magazine, even, and somebody asks me where I'm going, I'm liable to say I'm going to the opera. It's terrible."
- J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye

That's me. I lie ... a lot. I'm trying to quit, but it's hard after years of doing it ... I lie practically about anything. For example, I cut my hair a few days ago (just for a cm or so) and my classmate noticed and asked me, if I had cut my hair. I said no, although it was pretty obvious I had. Or when somebody asks me what I did on weekend, I can make up the most incredible story how I was partying with my gazillion friends.

omg,I'm sorry but I have to say I'm so jealous of you!I can't lie no matter what,I mean,not in a cute,'look how innocent I am'way,I mean it destroys my life.If I try to lie about the silliest thing,I'll start laughing,if I'm telling the truth and I know someone is suspicious of me,I'll talk in way that makes them think I am lying.Or(a bit paranoid)again someone might think I'm not honest,or I'm hiding something and then I actually consider the fact that THEY might be right,that I'm lying and I don't know it.I could be in a room with people and feel guilty..just because!

 

[w*n*c*a*m]

watching two handsome guys do the thing... turns me on.

I know I'm a sicko.

:: Now that's real confession.

 

[DeadmanWalking]

watching two handsome guys do the thing... turns me on.

I know I'm a sicko.

:: Now that's real confession.

Nah, you're not a sicko. You like men, I assume, so the "double your pleasure, double your fun" rule is in effect. We like what we like and "there's no accounting for taste".

 

[MrJones]

Okay, so a confession of mine from veeeery long ago, and which will make you realise that I am not as much of an angel as I might look:

When I was 7, my sister (she was 4) was preparing a theatre play with her classroom. It was about a very typical Catalan tale in my country, about a female rat who had many suitors (different animals), and bla bla bla (I'm not gonna tell the whole story here). So my sister was one of the last in the list, and she had to play the role of the bull. She wanted to be the female rat, but had to play as a bull, and was very angry at the teacher. She told me about that, and I told her to kill the teacher so that I would take her place and change roles. I even gave her a knife and she put it in her bag, but she never did anything... Now I just think it's funny when I remember about it.


And another confession, this one much more recent:

I lied to a group of Christians and told them I was one of them because I was lonely and desperate to get some friends.

... La rateta que escombrava l'escaleta!

Mentre no ho fessis ara...

 

[w*n*c*a*m]

Nah, you're not a sicko. You like men, I assume, so the "double your pleasure, double your fun" rule is in effect. We like what we like and "there's no accounting for taste".

hahahah! it's just that nobody would ever think that I have this 'taste' because I'm practically an angel to them and I'm not the bitchy type at all. I dunno... it feels like my preference is too extreme? but thanks, your perception coming from a guy relieved me a little. ::

 

[*Amy*]

... La rateta que escombrava l'escaleta!

Mentre no ho fessis ara...

That's it!!
Oh no, please, people know be because of my kind heart

 

[razzle dazzle rose]

This thread reminds me of those Post Secret books. It was interesting to read through, thank you for sharing. You are all so brave.

 

[Rembrandt Broam]

I'd also like to say that I'm a complete hypocrite. I push others to do things that I cannot/will not do. I give them relationship advice, tell them to go after their crush, and guide them through the darkness of their depression. Whereas, someone like me would have given up quite easily or have been too scared to do what I would have advised; I don't have the right to tell people to do things that I won't do. I'm ready for my retribution; everyone, tear into me like I deserve.

I don't think that's being a hypocrite. It's not wrong to encourage others to do something, even if you yourself may not have reached a point where you feel you can do that thing yourself. It would only be hypocritical if you we're telling them to do one thing, while doing the opposite and you would never have any intention of following the advice you were giving.

 

[BlackPuma]

[hidden by request]

If it makes you feel any better, with exception of the first one, I've been involved with all of those too. Some of them still, and daily. You're definitely not a bad person for it. Admitting them takes a big person.

 

[Rembrandt Broam]

I'm saying nothing without my lawyer present. ::

 

[Silatuyok]

@Razzle_dazzle_rose
I can relate to your post on many, many levels. And I know we're both not bad people.
(that's as close to a confession as you're getting, folks!)

 

[stevelee24]

i hate people who are dumb and think its cool being dumb
or worse people who pretend to be dumb to hang around with the real dumb people to try somehow to think there cooler being dumb

also i confess yesterday i was feeling so down i went out at 10pm and bought a bottle of jack Daniels as i wanted to just get drunk and out of my head, when i got home decided not to drink it and today give the bottle to my dad

 

[vj288]

Confessions 3 and 4

I do these to things as well. I feel so bad about the first, about other people, in reality I would never wish for anything like that to happen but my mind wanders and thinks them anyway. I imagine a lot of funerals, and how the tragedy would effect me. It makes me feel so incredible heartless and selfish.

 

[pop-princess]

- I binge eat sometimes when I feel down. After the over eating I try to throw up or exercise.

- Even though I have social phobia and for the most part hate and feel unsure about myself sometimes I feel like i'm better than everybody else and that nobody can reach to my level.
Very humble I know. Lol.

Kinda confusing that I sometimes can feel like this but at the same time I have this massive self-loathing.

 

[DeadmanWalking]

- I binge eat sometimes when I feel down. After the over eating I try to throw up or exercise.

Whenever you're feeling down, why don't you talk with us? You can exercise if you wish, but please don't force yourself to throw up. I'm scared of what might happen to you. Don't hurt yourself, okay?

 

[pop-princess]

Whenever you're feeling down, why don't you talk with us? You can exercise if you wish, but please don't force yourself to throw up. I'm scared of what might happen to you. Don't hurt yourself, okay?

Thanks a lot for those words,

Actually it's much better today. It rarely happens nowdays. That's why I can be quite open about it.

I had one critical period when I tried to be really perfect.

 

[razzle dazzle rose]

If it makes you feel any better, with exception of the first one, I've been involved with all of those too. Some of them still, and daily. You're definitely not a bad person for it. Admitting them takes a big person.

@Razzle_dazzle_rose
I can relate to your post on many, many levels. And I know we're both not bad people.
(that's as close to a confession as you're getting, folks!)

I do these to things as well. I feel so bad about the first, about other people, in reality I would never wish for anything like that to happen but my mind wanders and thinks them anyway. I imagine a lot of funerals, and how the tragedy would effect me. It makes me feel so incredible heartless and selfish.

I am not such a nice person, and that is okay. I am human after all. I actually never thought I would admit to some of the things I said (I was all antsy after) but I am glad I did because it sort of chips away a little at the shame and guilt, and I am staying true to my goal of just saying things. Thank you so much for your responses. I got PMs too, so I know I am not alone in this

 

[ERose]

Thanks a lot for those words,

Actually it's much better today. It rarely happens nowdays. That's why I can be quite open about it.

I had one critical period when I tried to be really perfect.

I'm really proud of you for being able to say that it rarely happens nowadays, well done. I've suffered from bulimia and have been battling other eating disorders since, it's really not a nice place.
You should be proud of yourself, it's really not worth doing to yourself, you're worth so much more and I'm sure you're well aware of that. It's just hard to believe and think like that at the time.

So, I can't praise you enough.