evil feline space cadet
Banned
Please don't hate or judge me for this post...
Ye probably think I'm an annoying depressive twat...
Right this is really starting to get to me.
People seem to assume EVERYONE with SA is introverted.
I wouldnt call myself fully introverted. I'm slightly extroverted. I Know for a fact I've SA though. I hate that people say, because you love people and love talking, that you don't have SA and think its a cry for attention or something.
I'm too quiet to be normal and now, because I like talking to people, I don't have SA?!
Just because I talk to people and have a social life, it doesn't mean I'm secretly TERRIFIED of making a fool of myself behind it all. I want people to think I'm one of them so attempt to make time for them.
I want to give people a new first impression of me instead of thinking of me as "that weird quiet misfortune who has somethin' wrong with her". Ive struggled with SA nearly all my frickken life! I'm obviously gonna try talk to people, even if it does seem impossible!
It doesnt mean i havent spent every breaktime in school hiding from people to avoid the torture of knowing nobody wants to talk to me, That i go home early from a night out 'cause everyones dancing and i feel like a fool standing there sober on my own, that i hide food and have a mini-nervous breakdown everytime someone see's me even standing near food, that i think everyone's talking about me, constantly, and that i rely on alcohol just to build up the courage to strike up a conversation....and that doesnt even work a lot of the time!
I dont think extraversion is a good enough reason to judge someone. They could be putting on an act on the outside while being a chronicaly anxious mess on the inside..
Nobody but a proffessional or the person themselves has a right to say they have/haven't SA unless they know how they truly feel.
Sorry but i had to rant..
Anyone else out there with SA who is extroverted in the slightest?
Share your comments, rants, and stories!
Or just prove we exist!
Ye probably think I'm an annoying depressive twat...
Right this is really starting to get to me.
People seem to assume EVERYONE with SA is introverted.
I wouldnt call myself fully introverted. I'm slightly extroverted. I Know for a fact I've SA though. I hate that people say, because you love people and love talking, that you don't have SA and think its a cry for attention or something.
I'm too quiet to be normal and now, because I like talking to people, I don't have SA?!
Just because I talk to people and have a social life, it doesn't mean I'm secretly TERRIFIED of making a fool of myself behind it all. I want people to think I'm one of them so attempt to make time for them.
I want to give people a new first impression of me instead of thinking of me as "that weird quiet misfortune who has somethin' wrong with her". Ive struggled with SA nearly all my frickken life! I'm obviously gonna try talk to people, even if it does seem impossible!
It doesnt mean i havent spent every breaktime in school hiding from people to avoid the torture of knowing nobody wants to talk to me, That i go home early from a night out 'cause everyones dancing and i feel like a fool standing there sober on my own, that i hide food and have a mini-nervous breakdown everytime someone see's me even standing near food, that i think everyone's talking about me, constantly, and that i rely on alcohol just to build up the courage to strike up a conversation....and that doesnt even work a lot of the time!
I dont think extraversion is a good enough reason to judge someone. They could be putting on an act on the outside while being a chronicaly anxious mess on the inside..
Nobody but a proffessional or the person themselves has a right to say they have/haven't SA unless they know how they truly feel.
Sorry but i had to rant..
Anyone else out there with SA who is extroverted in the slightest?
Share your comments, rants, and stories!
Or just prove we exist!