Dark angel
Well-known member
I just received the phone call this morning that I got this temporary job position at a hospital answering phone calls and doing basically some receptionist duties. I'm scared, I haven't work in almost 8 years. And all of this is gonna be new for me. I'm scared because in order to do this, I had to let some other plans behind and pending and my main fear is doing things wrong tomorrow or having to ask things constantly or not understanding what I got to do!! I don't even know how I got this job. It came suddenly and from nowhere because originally I apply to become a volunteer at that hospital but the president of that department for some reason, after our interview called the next day and she told me about the position they were offering in this other department... She said: "for some reason I immediately thought of you and that is why I'm calling!" I mean, what the heck? What she saw in me to trust me so deeply? I thought our interview went horribly wrong because I was all nervous, stuttering and sweaty but she still trusted me enough to bother and informed me about this position. I'm afraid of dissapointing her trust. To make things worst, Im not very good when it comes off to answer calls from strangers, I tend to get very nervous, so I'll have to suck it up somehow. Moreover, there is my "awesome skills at socializing". I'll have to interact with others which tends to drain me from inside out and I dont know how to approach others. For this reason people usually think that I am unpleasant to be around. All of this thoughts won't leave me alone and are giving me a massive headache. I mean, I'm extremely thankful for this great opportunity but yet, I'm so afraid of ruining it so badly... I'm so afraid and I feel this massive pressure and tension in my head right now, I don't want to mess this up