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I'm so lame.

I just bought a new HDD online, and I'm already planning out what kind of category folders I want in it so that everything will be efficient. I'm actually having a good time doing it. :D

Therefore, I am lame. <3
 

AsTimeBurns

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Pretty self conscious and paranoid... I was walking down the street with my mother, and there were three teen boys (maybe about 14 or 15) on their bikes. They were riding sort of close to use and...I can't really remember what exactly they said but it was something like 'Get out the way chubby' 'Move chubs' Just generally saying 'chubs' and 'chubby' a lot.
Now, I don't know if they were referring to me, but....anything related to weight makes me listen a little harder.
I don't want to be harsh, but my mother is...quite a bit larger than me... maybe they were throwing that insult at her....
Ugh. I don't know. It just seems I can't go anywhere without the issue of 'fat' or 'weight' cropping up on the street.

*e-hug*. Try not to let it bother you.
 
I can't help it. What can I do to be accepted? Cut off my flesh so they'll stop calling me so?


What makes it worse is that my family has no idea what to say to me. Which reinforces what I think of myself, that I actually am fat.

Rather try to recognize their ignorance.

Kids (especially at those age) are like those people that draw portraits with exaturated facial features. It's not difficult to find something about someone that they might feel self conscious about. Being among their friends they most likely just felt like they had something to proof to their peers (the others simply followed the first one).
 

WeirdyMcGee

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Very true. It just seems no other girl I know gets this. It's not like I'm obese,either. 130lbs at 5ft 4/5 is relatively healthy...I think....

Well, I'm about 5'4 and even when I weighed 180lbs, people thought I looked too thin; like I never ate.
It's different for everyone-- especially women.
I'm 130lbs now and some people tell me I look like I'm anorexic depending on what shirt I wear. -__-

If you feel good about your body- don't bother with anyone else's opinions.
Feeling good is what's important.
Love yourself.
 

Rembrandt Broam

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Very true. It just seems no other girl I know gets this. It's not like I'm obese,either. 130lbs at 5ft 4/5 is relatively healthy...I think....

130lbs is not overweight for someone your age, sex and height. I wouldn't pay too much attention to anything a 12-15 year old boy says. 99% of it is rubbish.

(Once they get past 15, that percentage drops way down to 90%. ;))
 
It's weird because...the boys that go next door are really nice to me. A couple even...flirt... as far as 13 year old boys can do so. So why does it suddenly change with boys who don't go there, but probably share the same mentality?

They do probably fluctuate in mentality (don't we all, really?). Some kids are just jerks at that age. I can't even remember how many time I've been the target of some long-hair joke by the hands of bypassing teens.

They've barely developed any kind of taste or appreciation other then what has been dictated to them by their parents and/or TV. Considering your weight, you're not fat at all. Not that being fat is a crime at all. It's actually quite desirable (or at least I think so) to a certain extend (meaning when it's not a danger to one's health).
 

vj288

not actually Fiona Apple
Jeez I need to stop being so stuck-up

Ahhhh, that's the word I was trying to think of last night, stuck-up. I sometimes act this way and/or give off this vibe, which is so ironic considering how little I actually think of myself.






Also, I managed to get my mom to buy me a webcam today without telling her it was a webcam. She asked what it was, I said nothing, and that was that. She makes avoiding some topics far too easy for me, not complaining though ::p:
 

this_portrait

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Man, I feel so much better after talking with my therapist over the phone. Pretty much all of my anger has receded. Hopefully it doesn't come back for the rest of the evening.
 

huzzah

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I can't focus on anything right now which is great since I have about eight college application essays to write
 

MrJones

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For the music is your special friend , dance on fire as it intends. Music is your only friend... until the end...
 

this_portrait

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I really wish I wouldn't have forgotten my earbuds in the car. Starbucks is playing some crappy music, and I would rather listen to some 80s stuff.
 

MikeyC

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I really wish I wouldn't have forgotten my earbuds in the car. Starbucks is playing some crappy music, and I would rather listen to some 80s stuff.
Haha, I've done that a few times (forgot my iPod), and I've had to endure other music or the mindless chatter of people. Not good! ::p:
 
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