Still waiting on that "one day" when things start going right for me that my family keep telling me is coming. When?
Next week? Next month? Next year? :kickingmyself:
“You sold us out, Clark. You gave them the power that should have been ours. Just like your parents taught you. My parents taught me a different lesson... lying on this street... shaking in deep shock... dying for no reason at all. They showed me that the world only makes sense when you force it to.”
I can do anything I set my mind to, apparently. But only if you agree to let me, it seems
See, that is a key insight you've learnt right there. If ye keep progressing as ye are, pretty soon you've understand everything about them & their ways, and that'll boost yer hapiness no end!! :bigsmile: :thumbup:
See, that is a key insight you've learnt right there. If ye keep progressing as ye are, pretty soon you've understand everything about them & their ways, and that'll boost yer hapiness no end!! :bigsmile: :thumbup:
Not really, I've known it for years. Just now starting to fully realise how controlling my mum and older sisters are towards me, and I've got to the point where I just tell them outright that it irritates me.
Which they can't stand, because they now know that I see their line that "I'm only trying to help ye" for the manipulative BS lie that it is. And that I'm not just going to let them help me because they insist upon it.
I'd be a lot happier if I could live on my own, to be honest.
Not really, I've known it for years. Just now starting to fully realise how controlling my mum and older sisters are towards me, and I've got to the point where I just tell them outright that it irritates me.
Which they can't stand, because they now know that I see their line that "I'm only trying to help ye" for the manipulative BS lie that it is. And that I'm not just going to let them help me because they insist upon it.
saw some new graffiti in dorm 3 today...and of COURSE..no one knows who did it...I asked one guy what it (the graffiti) means and he just said "its a pitch fork" and walked away...you can't get ANY info out of some of these guys...but basically , the pitchfork is a symbol used by a gang called the "gangster disciples" and the fact that the it was found in the new arrival unit (dorm 3) means we apparently have a new gang member at the prison....to add to the list..lol
I really have a lot of respect for the gang unit here . it consists of only TWO guys and the prison has a capacity of over 900 inmates . the gang unit has to find out which new arrivals are in gangs and then keep an eye on them. they really have their work cut out for them. SOME new arrivals have the ego bigger than brain thing going on but the smarter ones are a bit more cryptic and secretive.
all in all though, not AS much of an interesting day. although apparently last night an inmate swallowed a hand cuff key and had to be sent to medical. we were debriefed on it this morning . apparently the key won't come out.
-_- jeez...
and yes, currently this job is the most interesting thing going on in my life *shrug*
I'd like to think that i could start "living" at some point in my life. But i wouldn't hazard a guess if that will happen. I'm tending not to be very optimistic about it, due to how my life's panned-out to date. :sad:
I'd like to think that i could start "living" at some point in my life. But i wouldn't hazard a guess if that will happen. I'm tending not to be very optimistic about it, due to how my life's panned-out to date. :sad:
Sounds like me in my twenties and thirties. Up until about 35, when I finally got the memo.
Supposedly I'm going back to therapy soon, we'll see. It would be nice to hold a steady job and support myself, everything else can slide if I could just have that.
I'd like to think that i could start "living" at some point in my life. But i wouldn't hazard a guess if that will happen. I'm tending not to be very optimistic about it, due to how my life's panned-out to date. :sad:
Same here. :sad:
Is there any recovery software that will fully recover corrupted, unreadable files and uncorrupt them - if that makes sense? :question:
Got an ISO file on my laptop I was trying to updating, went to save it and now I can't open it or recover the photos I had on it. :kickingmyself:
When will this mistreatment end? Probably never in my case. :sad:
It was a simple request. I didn't raise ma voice or swear. Ah even said "please". But my mum just response in this rude, angered tone. 😕 :idontknow: I might as well kill maself n' be done with it. Maybe I'll be treated better in death than I was in life? :crying:
Is there any recovery software that will fully recover corrupted, unreadable files and uncorrupt them - if that makes sense? :question:
Got an ISO file on my laptop I was trying to updating, went to save it and now I can't open it or recover the photos I had on it. :kickingmyself:
Although no surefire way exists to repair ISO files, or any corrupted files for that matter, some select free programs can open damaged ISO files, allowing you to save some, if not all, of the files in the ISO image.
Although no surefire way exists to repair ISO files, or any corrupted files for that matter, some select free programs can open damaged ISO files, allowing you to save some, if not all, of the files in the ISO image.
It's unsettling how bad my nerves are now. It's like all the years of anxiety and tension are finally catching up. I'm still shaking from a disagreement I had with my cousin tonight, is this how it's going to be? Has it gotten to the point where nothing I do will be able to calm me or settle me down? It's going to be a long haul if that's the case.
It's unsettling how bad my nerves are now. It's like all the years of anxiety and tension are finally catching up. I'm still shaking from a disagreement I had with my cousin tonight, is this how it's going to be? Has it gotten to the point where nothing I do will be able to calm me or settle me down? It's going to be a long haul if that's the case.
Hate when insomnia keeps me a wake. Only had 5 hours sleep. :kickingmyself:
Also I'm thinking about buying some booze - tonic wine, to be more accurate - but probably won't be allowed. Since my mum will make a fuss about it, as she always does.
Because every decision I make for myself is wrong or flawed in some way. :oh:
Yet, she never lectures anyone else in family, but me, about her distain for drink. 😕
I'm getting a workbench, albeit an improvised one. It's going to feel great to have a dedicated spot to work on stuff, rather than having to make due on unstable surfaces that are also either too low or too small all the time.
found out this HUGE guy was extorting a really short/small guy today . it made me really mad that someone would do something like that. he was in the sergents office crying, scared half to death because he said if he doesnt pay the guy then he's going to beat him up...so we switched him to a different dorm.
once you find out that someone is capable of treating someone else like that , you can really never look at them the same ever again. how can a person threaten someone with violence unless they give them weekly payments ? what kind of person DOES that.
I mean really, it makes me sick. I felt so bad for the small guy. I hope he'll be ok in whichever dorm the sergeant decides to send him to.
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